Sunday :
i woke up late this morning
Reason Number 1 : my hp died so have no alarms to wake me up
Reason Number 2 : my brother woke up late too and so he woke me up late
i only had 30 mins to prepare and go to church
as singers and ushers have to go to church early for preparation etc
i was kinda JUST IN TIME but maybe 2mins late
and the worship team rehearsed :)
my solo part was confirm and yes
this will be my first time singing solo in church for both service with a piano :)
I felt so grateful
my dad came early to give me moral support
told me to relax and hold the microphone with two hands so in this way, i will appear innocent looking and sweet
HAHAHAH SERIOUSLY!?!??!?!!
but i told him holding a mic with a hand is better as you feel more spacious to breathe

and so, the first service (0830am) started!
my throat started dry
GOSH! DIE ALR and why my throat was dry was becos i was in a rush and could not find any small mini breakfast and so i ate one of the chocolate hello panda kor kor gave me
hahaha
NI HAI WO ah! HAHAHA KIDDING!
ok continuing, my mouth was super dry, told God , i had practice my best for this song, the rest i will leave it to You :)
and the worship leader begin with
"Congregation, you may sit. The next song, which is relatively a new song, will be led by our worship team. We will sing a verse and a chorus and everyone may come and sing together."
*Piano playing --- 2 bars of music
*my voice comes in ----------------- "If my heart has grown cold, then Your love will unfold ....."
OMG my right hand holding the mic, started to shiver and shake
no choice, i use my left hand to support and gosh, the whole mic was shaking vigorously
and next, my legs started shaking OMG, i could have fall down anytime :O
ahhhhh but, i remain cool, i finished the song well
and when we went down the stage, i told myself that "God, in my heart, i did it well. I handled it very well. Thank you", but to audiences, i may not sing well
its like in two perspective : one is my heart towards God, another is towards audience
well, many ppl always say that its the heart that matters, to God, I know i did well, to audience, i may not

after service, i went to find for Vera to buy food and stuff
she, bernice and ellie were like praising me, saying that I sang well
omg, are you serious? its like no matter how many ppl compliment me, i am still not convince
an usher came towards me and told me that my singing was very nice, he shook my hand and even asked for my name
met joey and she was like praising me as well GOSH REALLY? i dont know~
went to buy food and met my YAM dgl Michael, he praised me too but i was still not convince.
vera trained my singing again as i was confident enough
i got to admit i may screw a word a little, so going to make the 2nd service one a better one

indeed, before 2nd service started, met Julia in the toilet and she told me to keep calm as well, also saying that i sang well in first service hehe :P
pastor edwin encouraged me by saying that i sang well
hope i did! hahaa
Oceans will part, my role is important as i am somehow teaching the church how to sing this new song
i sang~
it somehow turned out well? haha maybe a word screwed again?
still shivering and shaking but not as bad as the first service
i know i did well to God :)

during sermon (repeated), went to Youth Zone to check on my girls and all
as i went out, met the guitarist and he was like emphasizing abt my singing
he said "i had finally hear your voice, you sang very well, it was firm and all, you have a nice voice" so on and on
OMG i got to be convinced this time but still a little uncertain haha
he is a good guitarist and so his hearing cannot play tricks with him, so its confirm he could hear every single word i sing :)
after service, another usher came to me and shook my hand and compliment me
my worship team was encouraging me too
shawn and lydia :) thank you :)
went to look for constance and had a chat with her
she hugged me and said "omg, i am so proud of you, you sang so well"
REALLY? RI-ER-LI? HAHAHA
i am just so touched :)

i hope i didnt miss anyone out but even I myself am so proud to have this honour and the gift of singing
sing for God :) and readers, i am not typing so much just becos i want to show off who compliment or my singing is likka pro. i am not but this is my first time and i want to keep this blog post as a memory in my lifetime before leaving to china, God gave me a chance to serve Him in a spontaneous way.
and lastly, i am involved in a dance team for Youth Sunday
my last gift for the church haha no la, i am not dying or what
just taking a leave for 4.5 months.

after church, met up with kor to eat KFC wooo
finally, i felt that i had sang enough, dont feel like singing hahaha
and i was still in the midst of getting out of the "phobia" of stage fright? or that period of singing?
he sent me to vivo and i met sue hehe
followed her to her colleague's house for her colleague's daughter's birthday
they were all malay, how cool?
and i was comfortable there, luckily :) they were all nice ppl
and sue and i shared our experiences in internship
SHE WAS HOW SHOCK LORH hahaa
haha i told her "SUE, I GOT SOMETHING TO TELL YOU!"
she said "WHAT? YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND?"
errrrr -.- NO LA! ahahha she was like "huh, i was waiting to hear that" hahaha
sorry that i blog so long