The ballerina

Friday, July 29, 2011

This is my story...

I thought I presented the powerpoint slides well :P
it was toally impromptu and teacher kept asking qns regarding my sections :O
thank you sue and novell and yixuan for helping me
hahaha
so funny!

sorethroat and i still wanted and supported grandma to cook fried chicken wing for me
she asked why with panick and i said becos i dont want to talk
so that i wont talk and will be quiet
more of unable to talk right? ahaha
but i dont know, just dont want to talk
yep!

was late for class today for 25 mins
OMG
bus came late :( and the journey was super slow, dont know why

i suddenly remembered Zipeng self-proclaimed he is a fan of my blog ahhaa
thank you for ur support .. tsk tsk

left with 168, alr having 42, so down with 126!
yes!
go go go sophia!

readers, september or rather late august, I will be posting a long post or maybe even alot of post as the truth is going to be revealled soon
dont get shock but whatever it is, yeah.. this will be what happens so yeah~

I am going to shop
shop in watsons, and supermarkets for food and ahhahaha places which i need to get things i need!
-kiwi

got to study tonight and will be having bs soon at 730pm
gtg now hehe :P

This is my story...

I am having sore throat, the pain is unbearable
and time now is 947am, woke up from a dream which i forgot alr
and the sudden feeling of wanting to blog

gosh, i cant study :(
disappointed

want to sleep

oh no, later will have presentation
teacher pls be understanding :O

love my nails now
hahaha
gosh, this post contains alot of randomness

omg, why is so many people leaving XXXX XXXXXXX?
i am super sad
although not so close to you all but i will miss you all
andy, pei fang, jovan so many others :(
you all taught me alot in there
thank you and take care :)

kk got to study tonight and den tmr
oh no
got to do bs now hahha
bye people
might be back to blog soon

SORETHROAT~
-melinda

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

This is my story...

done with IB presentation and teacher said need to look more forward to it
meaning, cant just say but make sure it can be done
wth, this was the exact qn i asked you for the first few previous lessons and you just said "its not important, just think of an idea"
-.-
decisive!
woah.. i dont want to tolerate til next year
and in the end, everything i got to think abt it myself and do everything myself again
contributing 20% or lesser is considered nothing to me :'(
being bullied laaaaa... whatever!
ok fine!
i shall celebrate now cos today's the last lesson for IB!!!

today's UR lesson really made me almost shocked to tears
they invited a gynaelogist (dont know how to spell)and had combined class
i am super sad to hear things like this and was uncomfortable as well
we were even given a survey to feedback and stuff and i barely filled it up
asking stupid qns i hate to ans
i didnt care and just left it blank!
i dont want to get married alr
I am scared
i just want to ask you, did she died becos of you?
I am scared.. pls tell me if you were responsible for her death
I am really very scared..
things are getting more and more suspicious and I am afraid that what I guess could be the truth
but i am afraid to ask you
maybe some other appropriate time but not soon although i really want to know :(

i prefer my own UR class, lesser people and much better
today, we were taught abt communication like observing facial expression etc blah blah blah

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

This is my story...

daddy made it!
he was able to play the song on guitar!!! haha
but he couldnt play for long as it wasnt easy at all for him
hehe but i was proud that he actually managed to play it

this is my boyfriend's song:

Hey Jude, don't make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better

Hey Jude, don't be afraid
You were made to go out and get her
The minute you let her under your skin
Then you begin to make it better

And anytime you feel the pain, hey Jude, refrain
Don't carry the world upon your shoulders
For well you know that it's a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder
Na na na, na na, na na na na

Hey Jude, don't let me down
You have found her, now go and get her
Remember to let her into your heart
Then you can start to make it better

So let it out and let it in, hey Jude, begin
You're waiting for someone to perform with
And don't you know that it's just you? Hey Jude, you'll do
The movement you need is on your shoulder
Na na na, na na, na na na na, yeah

Hey Jude, don't make it bad
Take a sad song and make it better
Remember to let her under your skin
Then you begin to make it better
Better, better, better, better, better, oh!

Na na na, na-na na na
Na-na na na, hey Jude
Na na na, na-na na na
Na-na na na, hey Jude

Na na na, na-na na na
Na-na na na, hey Jude
Na na na, na-na na na
Na-na na na, hey Jude

Na na na, na-na na na
Na-na na na, hey Jude
Na na na, na-na na na
Na-na na na, hey Jude

awww... heart melted as i saw his face singing to me haha
today was our first date on youtube :P
HAHA!
he continuously sang it to me
and someone commented to hit the views to 100 000 000 haha on 30th july!
the view now is 11 934 315 hahaha
all the best beatles!!!
PM!! I LOVE YOU!

my fringe now is more and more like novell's last time hair
show you all:

the one at the extreme right
correct? haha the fringe more and more like hers haha

kk, got to go now
batt is dying
study!
bye ppl
-kiwi

Monday, July 25, 2011

This is my story...

early in the morning i was waiting to hear that bunch of keys to lock the door but didnt
was waiting for my mum to leave the hse before i wake up and start to do work
i dont know why, and OMG she left like super long time ago.. probably i was asleep
study! it has been such a long time ever since i really settle down and study haha

okok, today super awkward as i took the bus
i saw it but i never run for buses yup! this is me!
and so i saw it and thought that i shld give it a miss as i was quite a distance away
but it stayed there as it waited for the cars to drive pass
ok, i jogged a little and it moved a little
ok, i started walking slowly den, thinking that it really was going to drive off
but it stayed
ok, fine! i jogged! and appeared at the door of the bus
passengers staring at me thinking i was a "bitch"
no offense becos they saw me strolling den running like mistreating the bus driver
argh!! misconception ppl! becos Sophia Han does not run for buses..
oh wells~

came to school for only 20 mins what the WOW!!!

went to my grandma's hse for dinner
and den did a second medication on my toe
omg, my grandma was more awesome than me on healing things haha
ok, and the reason why i am saying abt this was that my mum suddenly came into my room and blah blah blah

hey readers, remember quite a few days ago i said abt this particular song that someone will sing it to me in the future and stuff or using a guitar whatever?
and yup, today indeed someone sang it to me hehe
guess who :$
oh wells, it was my father
-.-
and he couldnt reach the tone
SO NOT COUNTED! HAHAH
play guitar also played wrong key hahaha
not counted lorh
but he dont know abt this wish haha
he was singing and playing, somehow there but haha didnt make it
i was laughing like crazy until he gave up and showed me the youtube link
and yup, indirectly, the singer sang it to me
uhhhh... heart melted like hell hahaha
and the name of the singer (dont tell you :P ) is so cute

and and he suddenly talked abt beatles and i really miss the band
Paul Mcartney is the best
best singer out of all those my dad introduced to me
super handsome, talented, cute, humble and gentle haha
my bf for this year hahahaha
we met thru youtube, cool right?
i will download his songs soon :P

and thank you zipeng for uploading the photos
posting some of them here :
let me start it with the pic called the "endless road"

so cool right? i want it as my profile pic but i found another one which was

cool right? likka ballerina~

yup yup!! THIS is the endless road...

ooooo, SPOT JESUS! :O

I didnt had time to think of what to pose for this and it appeared like this HAHA :)

ZAAAAP! SOPHIA, YOU ARE UNDER MY SPELL MUAHAHAH
alright, enough crapping ahah, Dray was using his "wand" to zap me likka Harry Potter haha...

1861

not my fault, zipeng asked me to do this pose
to be a model -.-
:P

yup, went to the railway track on saturday :)
95 photots tagged
4 photos removed tag HAHA!

oh oh, and my parents were asking why my lips are red
my dad knows I am taking pills :O
and asked if the pills were certified by doctors or not
yup they were!
and i told him, "daddy, theres a story behind all these.. i will tell you one day"
he asked what story
i replied " i will tell you after my exams"
sigh, got to be prepared yeah~
readers, pray for me
and dont worry much, I believe everything is going to be alright
if it doesnt or i got slap or smth, i got to accept it as i was in the wrong in the first place..
daddy, all I want from you is ur UNDERSTANDING :)
-Melinda

its so hard eating kiwi

Sunday, July 24, 2011

This is my story...

hi people, I am back!
as in back to blogging :)
ytd's outing with Olenos was awesome as I got to share my story with them
and indeed what i wanted was understanding and they gave it to me
super really touched
during dinner, I told them I had dinner at home
and they still didnt fail to feed me by sharing their food with me
although i feel super bad but i will feel bad if i dont accept right?
hard to make these decisions at times
thank you so much ashley for feeding me ur wanton, really appreciate it!
thank you so much lincoln for giving me two pieces of garlic bread, really appreciate it as well
he bought western food just to give me the bread
super sweet right? OMG
really, sometimes, thinking of all these can make a person tear

after that, we had heart to heart talk - htht
well, i get to share my story first and told them abt the experience of the westmall and ang mio kio hub where tragic things happen... dont worry, readers, i promise i will share with you all one day
and they were shock and really cared for me
after which, dray suggested a "one question from everyone to a person" activity
and when it was my turn, i loved answering questions than to think to questions to ask haha
haha, bing chen asked if i have any target in life , target meaning lovers or blah you all know what i mean right? haha
and i said "erm.. haha.. well, i think my life is too messy to even think abt my own lovelife" tsk tsk HAHA!
den dray was like "oh yeah, as you can see..." HAHAHAHAHA

ashley asked this "if one day, you really really no money at all but theres olenos outing, will you allow us to treat you, for example ice cream"
well, i replied "although you all know my story and stuff, but i wont want to trouble my friends to offer their help. there were some of my friends willingly offering their help to me, but i rejected as i felt that the money i owe others is more than enough"
she still insisted on her question
and i replied "ok, if i really really really no money and really need it, i dont think i will have a choice, right?"
and she said "ok"
this question impacted me alot as i can see that she really cared for me as a sister in Olenos
although we arent close but its the Olenos bonding which makes all of us a family
i felt blissful
and through heart talk
ppl, said i was too nice to others and may get bullied and stuff
and that i trust ppl too easily, being paranoid ahhaha ok~
and giving in is the main thing which i have to be firm on
yup yup!! all these if i dont rmbr wrongly

thank you bing chen for checking which bus was for me to take
thank you enqi for ur hearts
and thank you dray for telling me to be firm
although this olenos wasnt a really successful one, as there were only 7 ppl but still i enjoyed myself and really felt fortunate to be with them

sunday:
"why did you call me?"
and i feel smart because i think all along it was just a prank
maybe you are too ...... to lend ppl ur hp?
aiyah, no point talking abt this, moving on ....

church was fine
the feeling in service was like "i finally get to sing again"
i was so happy today when i stepped into the sanctuary
and and oh no, bible study isnt fruitful ??
hope and pray that there will be a day whereby everyone can make it and do a deep study in it

slept as i get home
dad called ard 640pm and said in 20mins time, i got to go downstairs
OMG, I haven bathe, haven pack, haven eat medicine, haven clean my toes stuff, facial
so much
oh wells, i was so proud of myself that i managed to do all these as mentioned in 20mins time
proud of me right,erm, except for the applying medicine on the toes hehe :P
and my dad was late even
gosh, might as well say 30mins, so that i can do my toes alr
its ok
i found out that I am the youngest in my bible study grp
dad treated me the chicken cutlet, as i haven been eating for like nearly a year
becos the hawker centre was under renovation and my family seldom go over there to eat alr
felt dry, i wanted a drink but becos got to buy food for mum and oh wells, skip it -.-

i forgot to buy pen and so i went downstairs to buy
i know my mum will nag and so i was prepared for it
the main thing is to get the pen
as long as i get it, she can nag for all she wants hahaha
i will still feel happy though COS I GOT IT!
she told me "buy pen not for drawing only writing, dont waste ink"
WTH?!?!?! you are the one always telling relatives i draw so nice whatever -.- den now i buy pen you tell me not to draw
so? who uses pen to draw although everyone does it sometimes, i still have pencil what
wait till i draw you one day den you know HAHA
and next, she came into my room and said "make a marking on the calendar for today that you bought this pen and do another marking on the calendar when this pen has no more ink and see how long you took to use finish this pen"
OMG, mummy hahaha, you are so lame
even if i want to save money, i wont even do it to this extent GOSH!
hahaha, maybe i should do that
make a marking for today but not to make the other marking when the pen is used finished hahaha
see, i so "conservative"
gosh, i am like entertaining her jokes....

kk, tmr and tuesday no school, which also means i can get to study and i really need to
no time to check phone, no time to blog but i will still do it, no time to eat? hmmmm, we will talk abt this later, no time to say hi but i will still do, no time for ppl?
omg, i dont know what i am talking
ok whatever it is, it means to say that I will be BUSY for this while all the way til 19th august
and once 19th august arrives, i can do whatever i want to do but most importantly, let my dad know whats going on
i cant possibly wait for all the results to come alr
might as well just tell him abt my tests results haha yup!

ashley said smth which makes sense but i dont have a choice still
"銭可以省, 但是买食物的钱不能省!"
yeah, makes sense but still
no choice, till september comes, ok?
i promise you alll :):):)

ok, got to study alr
and my dad refuses to see the dresses i want to show him
argh
so annoying
cant he just come to the room and see everything?
stupid!
den if i throw my tantrums, my mum is definitely going to say smth
argh!
omg
omg
omg i freaking angry!
goodbye ppl
b WFJSNKVDSJxbvdxvk
-kiwi

Saturday, July 23, 2011

This is my story...

forever busy and tight with schedules

have you ever wondered those ppl who i blogged here to praise or thank them etc
and they dont even know becos they practically dont read my blog?
is it true that we have to thank ppl secretly?
not saying that i want the world to read my blog but have you ever wonder smth like these? especailly those readers who owns a blog?
i am a kind of person who will think abt things when ppl think that those thoughts are unnecessary haha
i have to admit i think alot haha and that makes me a girl!

I will be going out with Olenos later
and i finished my tutorial 8 for service marketing
argh! this module was supposed to be my favourite but the lecturer is so .......NVM!
need help dont even want to help students and my friend complained abt him to the school :O
omg, super funny haha
cos we students have to do a survey abt how we feel abt our this year modules and any areas for improvement
hhahahaha, i complained abt idea blueprint but not the lecturer, the module instead
i scared i complained then the lecturer lose his job how? so poor thing la
okok, den i said "since IB is a pass or fail module, why we students need to commit so much to do the projects and neglect other modules?" smth like this
well, this is my first time doing this, being direct, ok i meant indirectly direct haha
first time to really opened up myself and rate this module super low, below average
should open up more hahaha
i was contemplating if i should complain, oh wells, i did it in the end
and i felt that the module really deserve it
on second thought, i dont think i am the only one complaining ahahha
practically the whole school ahhahahahha!

singing in silence, dancing in closed doors, sleeping in sweet dreams, feeling the breeze in closed eyes, walking along the seashores in barefooted, picking up seashells in enjoyment, sitting under a coconut tree in a beach attire (beach skirt), spread out arms walking in a garden full of butterflies and all types of flowers, lying on the grass in the night and glancing at the starry starry night as I count the stars and shooting stars, dining in a restaurant with a beautiful Italia ambience, listening to the most touching music in a couch, SMILING IN AN AWESOMELY PEACEFUL WAY
:)
;)
:D
:P

life is full of wonders by God's amazing grace

have you ever wonder whoever you complained to gossip abt, in the end, they are the ones who brought you up to be stronger?
have you ever thank a thief for stealing so that we will be aware of our things next time?
have you ever thank someone for neglecting you so that this is where you start to grow and be independent?
have you ever felt stranded aside, so that you actually can know how amazing life can be?
have you ever stayed in a toilet for more than 30mins to ponder abt ur life or self-reflection?
have you ever thank a person for quarrelling or insulting you?
have you said thank you more than sorry or the other way round?

theres just so MUCH questions to think abt in life that we all want to know, especially me :)
i want to know how did people overcome their fears, depression, hardships, broken families, smile when their life is pathetically in a deep shit!
God brought me strong by providing people ard me who are meant to be complained or gossiped or be praised or be thanked etc

I am fortunate to live :)
as long as I am alive till the end, I wont regret living and being God's sinful child :)
-Sophia Melinda Han

Friday, July 22, 2011

This is my story...

hey readers, sorry but i got to action a bit here HAHA
as some of you may know that i got to prove my dad smth before the truth is to be revealled
i kinda did it!!!

quiz 5 : 100%
quiz 6 : 60%
quiz 7 : 90%
quiz 8 : 80%

thank God for everything :)

my toe is hurting badly :'(

This is my story...

thursday:
I want to thank Bing Chen for making sure i board my bus before he board his own bus
well, its the 1st two rules for us boys and girls:
1st rule: never run for a bus
2nd rule: guy have to wait for the girls to board the bus before them (i feel that not necessary haha) and in return, the guy got to sms the girl when they board their bus alr
hahahahah thanks for sharing with me bing chen :)

I want to thank Zipeng for sharing my story with Olenos
no sarcasm cos even if you dont tell them I will tell Olenos one day during hearttalk
not seeking for pity but more for understanding and support and encouragement :)
dray my GL was disappointed in me :(
and said it wasnt worth it at all
but aiyah, what is done is done
this is what i am in now so no point going backwards right?
zipeng kept emphasizing abt the egg thing :O
yeah.. oh wells, it may be better if i dont share here cos i dont want you to think i save money til so exaggerating or smth :(
it was indeed sad and so tempting to tear to think of all these and my "bian dan"

I want to say sorry to Pancy for only attending her "party" when it ends
as in sorry for not attending for ur celebration cos i got a netball team to handle and stuff, yup!

kind to think of it
if i didnt meet you, i wont have to sacrifice so much and make my life to be like this
if i had been in JC, i wont even get into so much troubles and felt that i really deserve a tight slap from my dad
i really wish he had done that if he really feels that it makes him better
if i have a chance to turn back the clock and choose a path, i rather not create a fb, only a blog
or going to poly without a laptop
or maybe just go to JC
be an anti-social girl and my life may just be even better than now besides learning more in life
but i dont find a point talking abt this becos all these are done in the past
I am very sure God made me go to poly and allow these things to happen in my life
maybe becos I am a weak person, needs to be trained strong or even stronger so that i can help others in the future

randomness requirement in life :P
i had found a song which is superbly awesome and am not going to tell anyone whats the title
and with this song, it will be from someone in the future to sing it for me..
and God, I will tell you that I will be waiting
this is between me and God :)
wont tell you guys when or what age I may be when i expect this to happen
OH WELLS~~~
although i can talk abt this now, doesnt mean the right time for this to happen will happen soon or maybe later
if this doesnt happen, hmmmm, it maybe a meaning about a better future for me
>.<

ytd's netball... well, I was all alone leading the team
I want to thank Shuli for introducing a new training for the netball team and I learnt it :)
and i hope that the netball team will be understanding enough that I am busy with admin stuff with shuli and cant really focus on their training
Kaeshin, said that "woa, today's netball is awesome!"
OMG, DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THIS SENTENCE MEANS TO ME!?!??!?
I WAS SO TOUCHED but said "really? i dont knwo if i did a good job"
shuli said "actually, you did well la, you see, they listen to ur instructions"
but thing is that whether they were enjoying it or not
i am worrying
i have to admit i cant really lead it well as compared to the captain
but i know that at least, i did my job smoothly :)
AND THE GOOD THING IS THAT ITS OVER!
not enjoying netball alr
sigh
joined for fun not for work or any positions
wanted to be an original person, thats all
but what is done is done
i chose my consequences

today:
finally finished my UR report!!!!
finally found out that theres so much to talk abt in a r/s report
ahha readers, dont even think that I am in love, ok?
i am innocent de lorh!!!! HAHAHHAHA

i show you smth which my grandma encouraged me to buy :)

she said if i wear, will look like the meile jiayou girl, the cyndi wang from taiwan i think ahahhaha
so girly laaaaa
i also want to buy another dress

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spot the difference? and choose? tag my board can? it looks dead!

ytd night, i watched the "live for dance" and those dancers and judges and audiences really touched my heart to tears
some dancers have complicated family background yet they can dance their life out
a judge went to ask a small girl dancer "what do you do when you face hard or tough things in life?"
and you know what she said "SMILE"
omg, really super touching
i really got a shocked at her ans for her at such a young age
i think shes ard 7 or smth
yes
the best thing we can do in life is SMILE

although i am busy but the temptation of going out is really tempting ahah
but i didnt unless theres friend outing or facial
yup yup!!
haven been shopping for 2 months
and i am going to make it 3 months!
thats right man!! hahaha
and this is the reason why i online window shop hahaha
oh wells

massive shopping in september hah!
love to blog
-kiwi

just went to visit the doctor and he gave me alcohol and iodine for my leg :)
hopefully it recovers fully within 10 days
pls pls pls
ppl, trouble you all to pray for my leg alright?
tysm :)

cant wait for september to come :)
jiayou!!!!

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

This is my story...

this was Rachel Kan's status:
"I was complaining about stuff until I did qt and came across this verse:

Be joyful always; [17] pray continually; [18] give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 (NIV)

This verse definitely serve as a reminder to us to give thanks always instead of complaining."

i know i complained too much
but who in my family can really spend time to listen to me
bro dont really care or neither will he get what i am talking abt
grandma might be irritated alr
mum is forever busy and it will be so awkward if i tell her or rather she will scold me instead ha!
dad still can but cant say everything if not mum will be jealous like we having heart talk blah
no more ppl left in my family except for me and God

God forgive me for complaining too much
i want to keep all these complaints as memories so that next time i will know how on earth i overcome them
super soorry
i really dont know what to do

but i want to thank God for putting me in this position
becos i haven been angry for a long long super duper long time
realised?
all these days i have been living, is either happy or sad
no anger
finally, my anger is back!
and i got to feel happy abt it
i haven been angry for such a long time
i miss my anger and realised that this is what i am when i am angry haha

think nicely alright!
I know i can go through all these and all these will definitely be over
better be ah, if not i really wont get out of my angry cage
I know right!
hahaha
peace!
kk
tmr is going to be AWESOME!
ARGH!
JUST DO IT
HECK CARE ALL ALR
NO TIME TO EVEN THINK ABT ANY PROBLEMS UPRISING BEFORE ME
JUST DO IT!
GO!
GANBATTE!
-kiwi

God, bless my readers as they are still so willing to read the fifth post for this suay day :)

This is my story...

today in UR
I REALLY LEARNT ALOT ALTO ALOT
we learnt abt the needs and wants in a r/s
today, the topic covered mostly on sex
omg
i am scared and felt uncomfortable when the teacher starts to elaborate on abortion
i dont want to get married
thats a thinking for that moment
we were told to write a qn on a piece of paper about sex without including name and pass to the teacher
private and confidential
and the teacher will read out the qns and answer for the class
well, she at least answered mine but hiasshhh
oh wells
some also talked abt masterbedding ans stuff

guys and girls have different thinkinggs as well
OMG
really learnt alot today!!!!
fruitful ttm
:)

-kiwi

This is my story...

haha woah
the idea blueprint lecturer never fails to piss me off
OMG SERIOUSLY
ok, we were taught 3 strategies den i thought i got to include in the grp website
he gave us the "saying out of point" face as he read out ours
and i questioned him abt it
after soooooo soooo sooo super duper long
den he told me only need to do 2 stratgies
WHATTTTTT?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
never say earlier, den make me sleep at 5 for nothing
stupid you know
and since you alr know i put up 3 strategies, you could have told me or so
argh! stupid! really stupid
today is seriously a suay day
more has yet to come

today i purposely came late for class
at least i felt that i got my revenge back
lecturer was showing some videos so it was alright
nothing happened
den came to work, i said to zipeng to tell the 2 girls to get started
.........
second time told them again
third
den came fourth
fifth
forget it! uncountable alr
THEY WERE STILL FACEBOOKING DESPITE THE NUMEROUS TIMES I TOLD ZIPENG TO TELL THEM TO DO WORK OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!
"eh, seriously, can you f***ing ask them to do work or not!"
den zipeng told them to do work
like really seriously
sorry zipeng, i didnt mean to scold you but its really childish when you know you did not contribute at all in the grp and still dont even have a sense of emergency
as in the "you" is not you but you know who la
somemore still laugh, funny meh?
you dont do anything, its really enough for me alr
DONT PROVOKE ME ANY FURTHER!
GET OUT OF MY SIGHT
I AM SUPER FREAKING ANGRY WITH YOU!
YES YOU!
GO AWAY
I DONT WANT TO SEE YOU
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I HATE IT
I WANT TO QUIT SCHOOL PLS!
I AM SERIOUSLY SERIOUS!
hey pls la come on la, we are left with one or two more lessons which also means we got to really wrap up everything and make it a success
ur job is just to choose a solution out of five
IS IT HARD IS IT THAT HARD?
IS IT THAT STRESSFUL THAT YOU GOT TO GO FB?
I DIDNT EVEN HAVE THE TIME TO GO THERE
AND AFTER YOU ALL CHOOSE, I GOT TO DO POWERPOINT FOR THE WHOLE GRP
AND EDIT THE STUPID WEBSITE FOR YOU ALL
IF OUR GRP GET A, YOU BETTER MAKE SURE YOU TREAT ME SMTH LIKE KOI
BUT I DOUBT WE WILL GET A EITHER
ANYWAY, SUPER ANGRY
NOT COOPERATIVE AT ALL
lecturer, I WANT TO CHANGE CLASS AND CHNAGE GRP!
really suoer childish and brainless ppl
i am like a mother pushing children to do work
omg, MELINDAAAAAAA, CAN YOU EVEN BELIEVE THIS?
REALLY SUPER ANGRY!

not only this!
my captain injured her knee and no choice, her dad told her to rest at home
which also means, i got to lead netball TMR!
wth!?!?!??!?! argh
whats this?
but this one cant blame anyone
honestly, i joined netball to really try out new activities
yeah
got too involved to an extent i hated it alr
sigh
tmr is going to be a long pathetic day
I WANT TO REALLY SCREAM IN THE WATER AND REALLY JUMP INTO THE SEA FROM A HIGH CLIFF
BEACH BEACH BEACH!!!!! I SUPER MISS YOU
I AM REALLY TOO ANGRY TIL I AM IN A CRYING OUT LOUD STATE
someone or smth pls help me!

you two are not cooperating in the grp
and so i volunteer to do the extra job
den got excuse from you also
AIYO!
dont make me and we three stress can?
and dont you give me black face ah
although i never see before or got it from you before
always procrastinate
no apology also
it was so pathetic to a state that i got to even stand out in the grp to help
i thought i at least can rest or smth
-.-
argh!
i wont want a late submission to happen alright
so make sure ur do ur work

and and and, aiyo, you also OMG
stop asking me this and that like as if i can help you
i dont think you even appreciate it
you think "thaank you " enough alr? cure alr?
put urself into my shoes and you shall see

gosh!!! today is bad really bad
beautician didnt pick up my calls, didnt reply
when i went there the shop was closed -.-

God, whats wrong with today?
the worst wednesday ever :'(

This is my story...

i felt so much better as i stepped into school
a guy from my UR class waved at me despite me able to recognise him aha
and the funny thing is that i dont even know his name

met 2 gentlemen as i walked to class
haha
one let me go out of the lift before him
cos by right, the person who pressed the button should be the one who goes out last
and another helped me to open the door with all his might HAHA
and now i am blogging in class
i shall munch on my pathetic breakfast, which is my bun

its 8.01am and I am the only girl in class with 3 guys :O
everybody's late

will be going for lunch with Olenos (Y)
hopefully that will make my day somehow
dont worry, I am a cheerful person -.-
will be happy in a short while asap :)

tired tired tired
and i did the whole report of UR (Understadning r/s) ytd
dad refuses to help
ahahahahahhahaha, maybe he doesnt know also but refuses to admit :P haha
jk
kk, just going to stone at my blog for a while ...

This is my story...

I am freaking so angry that I had no choice but to blog this particular post in the bus
the feeling of not being understood is just purely horrible
when you realised you got to go through this and things werent what you thought it would be...... ARGH! f it!
i really hate it what I am
went to my grandma's hse and only had 15mins
didnt even wash my face before i left hse
can you even believe it?
beautician is not replying me and i cant be understanding abt this
you made me go through so much and not replying me pissed me off seriously!
i feel bad that i got to make my grandma give me lunchbox four out of five days
i cant breathe properly
lips are hurting
no time for a stupid breakfast
i thought this is a stupid and super bad day so i decided to wear the peace bracelet i bought for $1
it was so irritating to cut out the price tag
nvm, blame it on my temper
den i cant even tighten it
omg
am i really unlucky today
today's lesson are really hopeless enough for me
and my grandma scolded me for wearing it :'(
i complained to her that theres this guy super no brain
kept pressing the lift button when the lift is alr there and my dad and i cant even take the lift and got to take another one
as in he kept pressing the button til 2 lifts came down
super really ..................
sorry but really freaking no brains
and my grandma scolded me say"den why you complain to me?"
:'(
what!??!!??! you know it really hurts me if you say that
cos i no one to complain to
oh wells, ,maybe next time this is the right place to complain - blog
no understanding from any family now
dad is busy at work, mum doesnt really care or communicates with me
bro cares abt himself only but no offeense la, grnadma must be tired
argh
think positively positively
today is going to be a nice day
OMG
I AM LYING TO MYSELF!
and while walking to the bus stop, this stupid old man kept staring!
argh, super irritating
i felt like walking in front of him but on second thought he will stare even more
ANGRY!

sorry readers, i felt much better now
its 7.30am now
heading to school
i shall enjoy the scenery, continue blogging wont make my day any better
sorry i dont know what i am talking
so contradicting
God, i really need a non-disturbing sleep :'(

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

This is my story...

I hate july!
BUT I GOT TO LOVE IT becos it trains my patience :)
I want to thank Guna for really making me happy today
it really has been such a long time ever since i smiled til i reach the maximum of my mouth haha, not exagerrating but really! HAHA
oh, he likes Peace too!

and people, sigh...
i dont know
no offense again, i got to really say that I am not that Sophia who always give in alr
i am trying to not to give in too easily although it might not seem to improve much but i know myself
sometimes i really got to say if i cant take it
although it hasnt happen yet but still, i am training my patience to swallow all these nonsense down
ppl kept telling me have to voice out, tell them if you are affected or blah
haha, still trying i guess
if i totally am a 100% in giver, den might as well let july be my whole year, right?

ok, time to really say smth
oh wells, this is practically the reason why i have to give in to you these people and say out here
sorry to say but by just saying thank you, it doesnt really make a difference
the two words "thank you" has been too commonly used til it lost its value
for example "thank you letting me copy ur work" this is what i meant
but not saying that this happen
well, i just want to say that dont becos of what you wish or want to do, affect others and trouble others
when smth happens to you becos you werent informed, dont blame others becos you refused to cooperate
its really troublesome to really be alert foe everybody ard me, dont you think so?
i shoulder so many ppl's responsibility and got to spoon feed them
all i get back is...... "thank you"
i would really wish to hear what you thank me for
and dont you ever give me black face
becos through all these, even if talking abt making use of me, you have no rights to show ur attitudes to me
if not den blame urself for being so irresponsible
i dont wish to create conflicts to sour friendships and thats one of the reason why i am blogging this post
you can dont respect me but respect urself
grow up!

and xxxxxxxx xxxxxxx is not cool at all
it instead made me feel so disappointed to see you all ending up like this in times of crisis and you all were just like enjoying life as in the way you like and leaving the ppl behind to do the chores for you
not me alone but others as well, and really found someppl on the same boat as me
i thought i was the only one though
if "bullying" me is enough, dont do it to others as well
one is enough to kill

just want to know
"whats wrong with all of you?" and
"what do all of you want?"
just these 2 qns
i think i over did it alr
over did as in sacrifice too much and gave in too much which in turn does not serve any benefits at all
and by "helping" you all, i dont know if i am really helping or harming you
to God, I had sin alr :'(
how to voice out to you ppl in a way where it wont offend ppl?
or shld i just continue to give in and suffer in silence?
God knows what you are facing, dont complain, suffer in silence?
july indeed trains my patience
:)
sorry for blaming you all here :(

i feel that this blog is so peaceful that i can share everything
this blog is really just like God, a secret friend where i can really pour out, rant, vent, scream, shout and share blah

dad was sweet enough to wake me up from my slumber by playing the song "more than words"
hahaha, i indeed woke up smiling
he almost wanted to play wondergirls-nobody
OMG, HAHA i stopped him, cos it was really too loud

things to do:
- CRM roles play
- UR report

tmr will be understanding r/s lesson and idea bluerprint love morning but hate afternoon
but the morning's class is awful also la, cant lie
really very noisy argh!
cant even learn well
i shall count down for my idea blueprint! 2 more lessons to go and i wont be seeing you these ppl for 7 or more months
thank God for this long break and i will see you guys again :'( with more patience ok? try me! huh!

sorry, i think i typed too much
argh so busy still while others still can relax :(
nvm its ok, just need to know i will rock more than them and my life will be much peaceful
tmr down another burden! yes! wooo
3 more to go and I can do it and definitely i will
goodnight in advance ppl
-kiwi

phone is not working well at times
it receives msges like 6 hrs lateer haha
sorry ppl if i didnt reply or have late replies or blah blah blah
i dont know
ask lollipop :O

Monday, July 18, 2011

This is my story...

actually forgot to blog abt smth things and which i am scared i totally forgot abt it alr

ok, sunday, when my bro persuaded my dad to go and eat in commonwealth, i saw rebekah!!!
yes rebekah lau from qcmc, she shouted my name and gave me a mega hug
*heard my dad's laughter*
den we were like OMG OMG, HOE HAVE YOU BEEN blah
den next came torsten and tuck yan!
torsten shooked my hand and said i look very different alr
hahahah well, everybody is growing up and so on and they are serving in NS alr :O
den den den i saw ervine
he came and i shooked hands with him :)
he talked like an adult now haha
oh wells, he was mostly talking to my dad and also serving in NS
i miss them all so so much
but wonder where was eunice and mabel and many other ppl in qcmc :(

today, lecture was cancelled becos lecturer had high blood pressure and he wasnt feeling well :(
super sad for him
he was perspiring like mad and panting as well
sue told him to see doctor hahaha so cute

i made a contract with my bro
abt who is going to buy or rather top up the beverages at home
he is so lazy and at time refuses to go with me to buy
i dont get it
and he doesnt put the drinks in the fridge whenever he is at home
hmmm, time to do smth right
and so, i thought of this way
whoever buys, the opposite party got to pay the service delivery (as learnt in sch)
one set of drinks is 10cents charged
vice versa
and so, i managed to earn $1.10 and him only 10 cents haha
now he is more motivated to buy alr
and OWES ME $2
he better return, i did this to cover up things for him den still take my money
money is super duper precious to me now!
huh!

TONIGHT'S THINGS TO DO:

-write the 500 words report for UR
-do research for CRM den send to yixuan and chace

AND THINGS TO DO WHEN THE "HEAVY STORM" OR "CYCLONE" IN ME IS OVER:

-BUY CEREAL of course (5 types including honeystars, coco krunch, corn flakes and 2 special flavours which have yet to try)
-buy new food that i never eat or seen before
-if i had a chance to be in school, BUY SUSHI AND THE CRISPY CHICKEN AND WESTERN FOOD AND THE MR BEAN ICE CREAM AND THE COOL BUBBLE TEA AND KAKI FUYONG AND YOU MIAN AND OMG!!!! ALLLLLLL LA HAHAHA
-shop, i really need to becos yes i need to get some stuff which some mothers dont bother to buy them for you haha, and also of course nice clothings and etc. i want to get a pokka dot hairband, big bigg one! haha and 2 of the short shirts hopefully cheaper and dresses for support singing and 3 pairs of shoes
*as long as i get 12 or 14 dresses den i am considered safe for church and wont have to buy anymore dresses
-after school holidays, i am going to read up abt customer relationship management and you know some of you know... yup yup!! i like this module though~
-hurry finish up my italian story book
-tell my dad EVERYTHING! :O *biting finger nails"
- oh oh paint my nails of course haha
- go to CHIJMES
- GO TO PLACES WHICH WILL IMPRESS ME, this one maybe in the future den say la HAHA
- OMG THIS ONE DEFINITELY CANT MISS OUT, EAT ITALIAN FOOD!
-GO TO THE BEACH IF POSSIBLE AND FIND FOR SEASHELLS
-AND AND AND MAKE PRESENTS FOR MELODY AND NICHOLAS :O sorry for the late presents HAHA
- OMG how can i forget this! argh! PRAY!!! PRAY TO GOD AND THANK HIM FOR EVERYTHING SINGLE THING I WENT THRU BE IT SUCCESSFULLY OR IN A FAILURE
- eat potato chips
- try ice creams
- clear my debts
- okok, i know theres just so much things i am look forward to after seeing the hurricane go away, well after all these, in the end, i still got to.... SAVE MONEY -.-
YUP YUP!!
YES I GOT TO DO THIS, FOR THE FUTURE AND FOR MYSELF :)

yes and OMG OH NO!
I JUST RECEIVED A CALL FROM MY CAPTAIN AND SHE SAID SMTH HAPPENED TO HER KNEE! :O
OMG I HOPE SHE CAN COME ON THURSDAY BUT IT WILL BE DEFINITELY I WILL TRAIN THE NETBALLERS MYSELF ARGH!
crap, super suay but well, alr forsee that this day will come
JUST DO IT LORH
no point panicking as well
pray
i will pray and let God lead the team through me :)

OMG OMG OMG I SAW A COCKROACH WALKED PASSED MY ROOM
dont know if its from my dad's room or my parents' room
hahahah
my dad caught it and i told him to hurry throw it away but he said flush
OKOKOK FLUSH FLUSH FLUSH OMG!
hahah he said from my mum's room
hahahahhahahahah funny la
he asked how can i see
well i just saw a black thing crawling pass my room and said "OMG DADDY DADDY COME COME COME, SEE THIS BLACK THING OMG OMG OMG!!!" :O
ahhahah oh wells, dont know why 2 surprises happened to me correspondingly
i wonder whats next
ok
i think next will be the project i got to do
its major as well hahahaha

i am excited for tmr's lesson cos its CRM-customer relationship management :)
goodbye ppl and goodnight to you all
thanks for those continuously reading my blog
-kiwi

Happy Birthday to you Nicholas! :)
i have a test on ur birthday! but its open book aha!

Sunday, July 17, 2011

This is my story...

i got to thank my cousin for helping me secretly during the dinner
she is really the nicest to me
today's dinner was to commemerate my grandpa's death anniversary
and it was like a family dinner and so on
and i did this, cool standard right!

sorry but i dont know if i had offended you
becos i indeed wasnt in a mood to talk to you at all
i dont think i did anything wrong except showing you black face or giving you a cold shoulder but you were ignorant towards me
i dont have a choice, do i?
i still cant accept it though
sigh, no point saying this any further

went to my dad's church and saw bryan and isaac hong
haha
learnt ALOT from my dad's teaching
so proud of him to teach his children
i love the way he teaches sunday school haha

i slept in the afternoon as i was super tired and stuff
in 2 hrs time, Happy Birthday to you nicholas!!
although it was such a disgrace that i cant get you a present on time but i promised i will get it for you means i will do it, alright?
hahaha
really hope you had fun and wishing you again another 18th blessing birthday
as i see my friends turning 18, the feeling is just so.....
dont know if shld be sad or happy or what
just want to be 16 forever~

-kiwi

This is my story...

16th July:
OMG!!! OMG OMG!!!!
YES! I DID IT!!!
I DID THE NOVELL SHOT hahahahhaha
Super cool!
I SHOW YOU ALL!!!
NOVELL, SEE!

although not as pretty as you but haha, this reminds me of you!
do you guys want to see more?

i also took pics with my awesome friends:

this was taken at nich's boucany (dont know how to spell) haha, the scenery was so nice!!!!

hehe, i dont know which is nicer so i just post both, alright? haha

also not forgetting my awesome ladies, woots~! lurb you

and and and also, my freaking long lost friend ZAAACCCCKK~ary!!!!! HAHA!

check out whose boss here, haha just kidding :P

this is the grp photo, i also dont know which is nicer and so i just post both!

and THIS WAS JUST AN AWESOME BIRTHDAY FOR NICHOLAS
i suddenly felt that i really got to catch up with my friends
i was super tired that day though but i was glad that everybody had fun and stuff

haha, and this was his ending!

focus is not the ppl but the lovely card for nich
so nice... its from joanna to nich :)

by the way.. Happy Birthday to you jacquelyn!!!
-kiwi

Saturday, July 16, 2011

This is my story...

auntie in malaysia: I am sorry, i've got no where to confess but here :( I am a big liar in saying my emotions

This is my story...

MIAing my hp by the way, and maybe facebook... sorry

Friday, July 15, 2011

This is my story...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x8sw-g6P544

This is my story...

i really dont know how to start this blog post as I am really too and overly lost of words
why is the ppl ard me so undescribable?
argh, forget abt this sentence
i dont know how to say it out!

ok, i shall be more organised
readers, i know i ever promised not to complain here but perhaps here is the only way i can pour out my sorrows to you all

firstly, i hated admin!
really hate it to the core
it was really disappointing of you asking if i needed ur help and before i can even ans you, you said you wont do it anyway
i meant like, although deeep down in my heart i really feel that we shld share the workload but since you admitted, i got nothing to say
and come on, to be fair enough, dont you think, i shld be the one doing the paper work and you doing the XXXXXXXX?
thats really 50-50
if i am to do ur workload as well, which is alr part of it, den i dont think it will be fair as my committment definitely exceeded yours
and its true you can do it better than me, so shldt the job be urs?
i do paper, you do the action
u even have a higher XXXX than me
ppl, despte the fact that i say too much here, i still got to do things which i dont enjoy at all... whats the point saying it here
forget abt this paragraph den.

~moving on~
secondly, why are you ALL asking me repeated qns when i alr gave you all the information? WHY?
i am alr busy ENOUGH
yes caps lock! ENOUGH!
we are really out of time and no one is starting so i distributed it to you all
and what difference does it make?
ANS: NOTHING AT ALL!
although what i did indeed decrease the work load and i appreciate it but pls have some discipline and not saying that i am panicking or what
yes! i am panicking becos you all dont even seem to care
and so many things happening in my life right now is way too different from you all
you all live in luxury, me? i dont even want to talk abt it

thirdly, i still dont understand why my toes arent healing
becos of this, i cant XXXX
becos of this, i have to wear slippers to school
it has been 2 months and my grandma suddenly refuse to let me see the doctor
what on earth is going on?
can someone pls explain to me why!

ppl pls bear with me as these 2 months is going to be hectically unbearable plus some other burdens for me to bear, i dont think i can hang on that tightly as usual
but i will pull through and everything
i am trapped
i am restricted to do many things i want to do

netball was quite awesome ytd as i managed to play and left 2 blood stains on my socks
congrats pls!!!!
my stamina dropped
ever since i led the team, i didnt play alr
not that i lost interest but its due to the fear of having to do more admin stuff and cant bring myself to play
i shld have rejectd the request of being a leader

i didnt sleep for two nights and decided to sleep ytd as i feel guilty if i torture my body

daryl tang, from fairfield tapped me on the back ytd
he was with samuel thng and we being to open a conversation
it was kinda of random as i wasnt close to anyone of them but since they were kinda social, might as well get along with them
and daryl thanked me for the short convo before he and samuel left for their bus :)

sue was forgiving enough to reduce my workload as she felt that i did alot for the grp projects alr
i felt guilty but kind to think of it
at the point or rate i am moving on in life, i shld deserve it!

phone is not working at times
cant receive smses on time but after a few hrs
a few hrs can vary to 12hrs

things arent really going well as my mood is always demoralised and i cant find a reason why i am feeling this way
no one, who even want to be in my shoes
i guess, i will just pull through and sacrifice somemore sleep and study whatever and wait for september to come
i am serious

i am suddenly lost of words

anyway, i will be taking a nap now
people, trouble you to pray for me?
pray that i will be strong in life and try to accept everything that i am facing or going to face
pray for wisdom in thinking as sometimes my mind isnt working well and cant think
life is definitely tough
thank God for relatives and friends who have been supporting and helping me continuously
may God lead me on

found out something abt you
and I was glad you were just my eye candy
-kiwi

just too much to say

Thursday, July 14, 2011

This is my story...

I am just so touched that you realised smth was not right in me
although we haven been seeing each other for a few days and stuff
you still know or suspect smth in me that does not seem right
:') thank you so much babe :)
I am really touched, perhaps I will share it with you some other time?
if you dont mind :)

yup yup!! indeed I am hurting and crying inside
just putting up a strong front in order to move on as there are many projects coming along the way
there isnt any perfect time to think abt my life unless I am travelling on a long journey
its ever since that sunday that I shared and everything just T.T
den just got demoralised and stuff

I got to admit:
I am really really very very very tired
tired as in physically, mentally and emotionally
all these will come to an end
it is going to end soon, and I am sure I will and can pull through

I want to thank all my friends for being there for me, supporting me and stuff :')
sorry if sometimes I am unable to hang out or got to make you all pay for my stuffs
I will pay you all back in september, october, sorry sorry sorry
i really dont know what to say and how to thank you all

my two friends in class were so sweeeet you know
i nearly teared as it was really touching and thoughtful of them
theres a game investment whereby you set aside a sum of money and you gain after that or smth
they wanted to do it and give me the money you know
:'( OMG, how much can I say thank you to you two?
but of course, i didnt want to agree with it as i will feel selfish

thank you thank you all friends I have
I am really blissful to have you all in my life and everything
God will definitely bless you all
:)
I heart you friends :)

gonna play netball later :)
have me fun!
-kiwi

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

This is my story...

I heard that my idea blueprint module class - the one grped with zipeng, china girl and 2 other "useless" (there is supposed to be a line across this word) girls, will be the same as NEXT YEAR!!!
OMG, am i THAT unlucky to be Sophia Han?
omg and it will be the same module if i am not wrong
gosh!!!! spare me spare me PLS!
i dont even know who I am begging but OMG
WHAT IS THIS MANN?
its either, i change my class or grp OR i change my module
any of this happen will at least calm myself down
come on la

and if next year none of the eithers happen, I seriously want to change my grp
i dont want to say no offense here becos i dont even think i offended anyone
sorry although it may but still, i had enough alr
practically i am doing all the work, and you all just keep quiet, doing nothing, after everything come and ask me what to do blah blah blah, theres more to say just that i dont want to use them to waste my blog space..
honestly speaking, you all might as well dont even attend the class
forgive me for saying this but i have been tolerating this for over 10 weeks alr
and we still have 3 more weeks to go
i am "f***ing" happy ttm ok!
GIVE ME A BREAK
and maybe i shall see you again NEXT YEAR -.-
Argh!
and stop being so distracting if you know I am the only one in the grp who bothers to listen in class
ok, the more i say the more i am angry

ahem!
today's understanding relationship UR lesson was kinda fun, i guess
we watched a movie where i really learnt alot
i bet the director must be a psychologist haha
and we got to write a 500 words report abt it!
i think i will get help from my dad hehe :P

we learnt abt people in different kinds of categories
it might be complicated if i say here so i think i will just cut short til here haha
we also learnt abt the love triangle, not the one who involved 3 ppl but the one which uses 3 words to describe
also learnt abt the difference between love and infatuation HAHA
and i only realised it til now
you see, when we experienced this, we dont even think of the difference, thats why sometimes, we get misled, agree?

and and and so disappointing!
i only bought a curry puff and a carton of milk and i am left with 10cents!
OMG
so sad,i thought i had $2.50
curry puff was 70 cents, milk was $1.20
ok, i dont know how did this even happen
super sad
i havent been eating curry puff and drinking milk for sooooooooo long, even cereal
i miss all those food i ate last time
cant even afford for a bubble tea to keep me awake for the IB IDEA BLUEPRINT lesson :(
sigh..

talking about being awake
i didnt even sleep last night
no choice, i got to rush a report
only slept at 5.18am for 30 mins as promised to Melody and Lincoln ahaha
i slept! yeah!
and slept immediately when i got home

i might not sleep again tonight as well
just want to get everything done
i dont like to see my projects still being there left undone
argh!
once and for all! yes!

and one good news
i think my mum is starting to trust me
becos she gives me the air con control and told me to on it myself for the past few nights
normally she on it for me as she thought i wont close the windows properly or off the lights before i sleep
its good
although, aunt, the bag you gave me , i dont know if its still with her
i really feel like claiming it from her since its her mentioned "next year" alr
the bag is nice if i am not wrong but i am afraid we will quarrel and she dont trust me again blah blah blah
i searched the hse high and low before but cant find still :(
and i think she alr forgets abt it and will definitely deny if i ask her for it

its ok, anyway, tmr is netball and i feel liek playing
i dont care of my toe bleeds or not la
becos i really want to play
hate being a retard sitting there watching ppl play
kk, got to go do lots of work now :)

dont worry, i will hang on there and will SURVIVE!
august is coming soon and it will end soon
although i dont want it to end so soon but i will use this month wisely
after august, i will become a new and normal sophia as before alr!
no more worries, i hope! hahahah
if there is, den i will pray to God that i am prepared for it
i believe through all these things that happened to me and me facing it alone, i felt that I am a strong person, and can be trained to be even stronger
thank God for everything :)
truth will be revealled soon as promised
-kiwi

goodnight

This is my story...

hi people, its 5.06am now!
goodmorning

in 3 hrs times, i will be heading to my Understanding Relationship class
we will be watching a movie, hope i dont doze off hehe
happy day ppl!
-kiwi

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

This is my story...

dad found out 2 things
one good and one bad
which do you readers want to hear?
i know this qns does not lead to an immediate ans but i am going to talk abt the bad one first

my dad found out that i am taking the medicine
wow!
no choice!
he asked "are you taking pills? why?"
and i replied softly "erm, i will tell you soon"
which i am prepared for it

gd thing was that he found out abt the ice cream
he brought the whole tub into my room and asked "what is this?"
hahahahahhaha

i love to have hearttalks with my dad
it can be sad, happy or even funny as we can see the similarities in us when we make decisions haha

so many things to do still...
goodnight world!
-kiwi

This is my story...

boring and hectic as usual!
slept at 3am :O
feeling tired

daddy, i was thirsty and hungry ytd while doing my work
so i went to the fridge, the only edible thing was the walls fruit salad ice cream
it was a new one hahaha and so i made this for you!

hehe :P
i only ate the sides :P
i wonder what or how would you react when you open it!
i hope only you open it, if its mum or bro... OMG! haha

lots of things to do still
service marketing report to rush but the lecturer hates to help me :(
goodnight in advance :)
-kiwi

my dream is to go to Italy and get a mask from Venice and of course eat cheesy delicacies

perhaps, the smartest person on earth is to know how to enjoy life and make himself or herself happy, or even smile for no reason!
happy life!

Monday, July 11, 2011

This is my story...

i feel so decent today
super slow mode hehe
dont know why
taking every step i walked very carefully

i like!
http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog_name=FOREVER21&category_name=sale&product_id=2000007440&Page=1

and

http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog_name=FOREVER21&category_name=top&product_id=2000024658&Page=1

and

http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog_name=FOREVER21&category_name=dress&product_id=2000016978&Page=2&pgcount=25

and

http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog_name=FOREVER21&category_name=whatsnew_all&product_id=2081258023&Page=4&pgcount=100
but this colour dont suit me unless i have long black hair :O

i miss going to shopping malls~!

today is monday
ytd's tmr is today
tmr's ytd is today
HAHAHA

have you counted how many steps you took after you stepped down the bed and prepare for ur day til you crawl back to sleep?

LOTS OF PROJECTS STILL!!!
-kiwi

Sunday, July 10, 2011

This is my story...

today, before meeting my dad
i really couldnt resist breaking down again in my grandma's room
i told myself "sophia, no time to cry, ur dad will be driving to ur grandma's hse and reached alr.. no time to cry! stop it!"

and i realised no matter how much effort i took to control
i cant :'(
i was supposed to be sleeping
barely even slept and my dad called

i was stressed
really stress into of what shld i do
i got to pissed off becos
come on, i didnt sleep well at all last night and now i cant even get to sleep?
thats why i felt that everything is not going according to my plan
my bro was telling me to get prepared and everything and had no clear idea why i was crying out loud non stop
he cant do anything as well

it was unbearable
indeed unbearable
i always tell myself to cheer ppl up
and i find it contradicting
how do you expect urself to make others happy when you are in a terrible situation?
i know making others happy before you, sparing a thought for one another
"Making others happy before you :)"
this is my second slogan but by looking at what i am now
haha, its like the other way round

i still got to shop for dresses for support singing
alot of things to do and thats why just live day by day and do what i am facing now!
-melinda

and my mum thinks that i put on make up!
what the!
not my lips, she said my eyes, eye lashes
OMG
when you look at a person, why look at the eye lashes instead of the EYEBALL!
OH MY WORD!
LOST OF WORDS MANN TTM!
hahahahhaha JOKE!

This is my story...

Thank You Vera, Rachel, Melody and Joey
sorry abt today
sometimes, i really cant resist it but to break down
and this can happen anytime whenever i talk abt it..
i am sorry
i know it can be embarrassing to ppl but i am not a strong person
more of an emotional type

cos it also pains me alot when i see my friends eating luxurious food and me staring at it only with my lunchbox
toes arent healing well
netball cant play.. argh!
tired tired tired
project works and accumulating
alot of stress and stuff!
so yeah, sorry abt it!

i will JY
can one!
i am just tired
dad was so nice
he knows my mood wasnt good and he made it awesome for me without even asking what happen!
thank you dad!
cos when i met him,i couldnt resist my tears, kept sobbing and tearing non stop!

couldnt even sleep at all!
sigh
God Bless me through :)
-kiwi

Ganbatte! - jiayou in japan!

Saturday, July 9, 2011

This is my story...

My first 3 words were...
WHAT THE HELL?!!?!??! hahahahahhahahha

notice my complexion.... so much better :'(
hahahah it was ethnic ceremony event or smth hahahaha
by miss pamela tan hehe :P

i miss secondary schoooooool life!!!!!!!
:'(

Friday, July 8, 2011

This is my story...

One reason why guys love to talk to girls maybe becos girls share alot.
One reason why girls find guys irritating maybe becos they feel that guys are wasting their time..
Guys will tell them "sian" or "screwed day" but dont wish to continue their story or maybe only a 5mins sharing..

True?

Theres just so much to talk abt in life just that we feel that theres no need to bother abt all these, but actually even the smallest things that happened in our lives creates great impact for us in the future :)

you all also must be wondering why do i have this sum of money to buy this and that right?
well, I will let you readers know asap ok?
although some of you alr know
When the time is right :)
dont worry, I will keep my promise :)

i took pictures of my nails today while waiting for the bus at the bus stop
i polished the tip of it :)
although it does not seem obvious, the colour is light pink
the one i also used to paint my toe nails :)
haha

this is just a random post
i love to blog!!!
kk gtg now bye
-kiwi

This is my story...

BLOG AND ONLY BLOG~!

BLOG AND ONLY BLOG~!
YTD:
hi people!!!
saw melvin in the bus ytd haha
like so long havent seen him alr
his music so loud, blasting off till i cant even listen to mine

anyway, i alighted at SIM to collect the stuffs from babe shannen HAHA :)
she was so nice and a pretty little girl :)
she puts on perfume too... OMG smells nice
but ppl, dont get the wrong idea
haha and den i got the leopard boots for $15 and the dress for $10
worth it right?
this is her blog, so am helping her to advertise it haha
just take a browse or smth :)

www.wedopretty.blogspot.com

i was so proud of myself as ytd's netball was just a small success :)
i told myself, no point wasting doing nothing and not enjoying at all
i indeed took initiative to even decide things on my own and really led it well

our ex ex vice captain came to visit us
and saw me ""slacking"" at the side
and approached me and sarcastically said
"wow, you vice captain now ah, slacking now ah, woah, somemore put lipstick, trying to be pretty ah?"
OMG
people people people listen up ok
I DIDNT PUT LIPSTICK
MY LIPS ARE SWOLLEN DUE TO THE MEDICINE FOR MY FACE
aiyo...

kk, she did help in killing my boredom while watching the netballers play the game
the feeling of wanting to play finally came to me and i was so happy
thank God!
i really cant lead alone unless it will take me a long time before i can really acknowledge my authority and position
my captain joked and said" the problem why you are vice captain is becoe you listen to people"
thats why and i find it true
becos the ex capt wanted me as captain but i rejected it becos i feel that i dont deserve such a high one, at least the back up kind
i really dont mind for what i am in and that i was proud of my captain still

and i dont like the committee to call me vice captain
i mean like why cant just call my name
i can fully fully bet with you all that
SOPHIA sounds much nicer

i ate alot for dinner

TODAY:
today is friday which also means that tmr is saturday!!!!
yes!
and my toes are still not healing fast
should i go and see a doctor?
it has been one and a half months alr, since june
sigh

i will be doing a presentation abt ISO 9000 for quality management lesson
hope everything goes well
alot things are happening in school
it led to many disappointments and alot of "whys"
i seriously dont get it why
maybe the only solution is let nature takes its course
and i cant really be bothered abt it becos i am not really involved
its just that i feel that its a threat where people feels that they are right when actually they are the ones who create the problem :/

i shall do nothing and pray yeah!
bye people, got to prepare for school...

kk, i am back!
just ended my presentation
before lesson, i still browsed through ur msges i saved
tee hee :)
really couldnt resis to make a smile or laughter haha
aiyah~ :$

i found someone who also does the same thing as me
"dont receive compliments"
if theres compliments, we will sense sarcarsm
oh wells, next time might as well just say "I know right!"
aiyo, going to sleep early tonight and start to study tmr
i dont know why i cant study on saturday :(
just do what i can alright?
sigh sigh sigh
goodnight and bye
-kiwi

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

This is my story...

hi people, this is the 401 post in this awesome blog
ok, i realised theres indeed so much SO MUCH to blog abt and yet when i come here and start typing, my mind just goes blank

let me just start to share from morning :)
I slept at 2am ytd as had lots of work to do and also got to assign work for my grp members
woke up at 8am zzz
went to this special building in NP
didnt went there before and it was the Understanding Relationship module
woah, this module is really worth more than 4 hrs
today, we learnt like what are the expectations for guys in girls and for girls in guys, what girls dont understand abt guys, what are the factors that might influence a r/s, whats a healthy r/s, what guys and girls look for and ALOT!

oh wells, so much to talk abt this lesson
first activity we did was to draw a symbol or drawing that represent ourselves on a folded paper
i thought of kiwi, lollipop, choir sign, dancing angel but felt that all these were in the past, its history alr
i want smth special and unique
thought of heart but its nothing special
and suddenly, a click in my mind and i took my pen and drew on the paper
PEACE!!!!! yes peace! how can i not include this special sign in my life? haha
and happened that zipeng also drew peace -.- but he drew wrongly hahaha, so i can say that he copied me haha
we got a shocked like how come so coincidental and so he changed his drawing :P

next page, we got to write 3 qualities about ourselves
i thought again, haiyo, why this? i suck at writing all these, i scared if i write smth den like so proud and arrogant, not humble alr
but still got to write and sooooooo.............
I CRAPPED!!
i thought of peaceful, cheerful and awesome
AND happened that zipeng also thought of awesome!
he quickly wrote it down before i say he copy me and den he said to me that i copied him -.-
so i changed it to Awesomely Awesome!
HEHE:P
cool right?

next activity, the teacher assigned us to random ppl
as a girl, i got chosen to meet and talk to 3 guys for 3 minutes SEPARATELY
SO AWKWARD!!!!!!
the teacher even wrote topics on the board in case we are out of topics to talk to each other OMG
HAHA
first guy i met, his name was OMG, I FORGOT! erm, oh no haha
kk, if i am not wrong, his name is zhong chun or smth ahhhhh
den we kept saying AWKWARD AWKWARD!! and laughed
and he wrote on my paper that i am friendly
second guy i met was an indian, i was a little scared
his name is Zia.. cool~
teacher told us to share our biggest fear or the most embarassing thing in our life
he was an easy going person to talk to, no stress at all
he said his fear was to take the lift as he got stuck there once
i said i am scared of insects, he replied "thats common for girls" -.- hehe
den he also replied " den you must hate me alot"
i asked "why"
and he said ........ (OMG OMG OMG)
HE SAID HE LOVES BUTTERFLIES!!!! SO DO I!
den i said " oh oh, i mean i hate insects but i love butterflies"
den he HAHA "butterflies are insects" and i also saw his paper, he drew this butterfly to represent himself, sigh, why didnt i thought of butterfly as well and decorate its wings with the PEACE SIGN!
he wrote on my paper saying that i have a nice way to talk to, smth like social yeah, cant rmbr
next guy i met was weiliang
he injured his leg
teacher told us to share the most romantic or distrastrous experience
erm, well, even if i have, i wont share.. haha
he didnt dare to share as well and so we just talk and find him quite a funny guy
he wrote on my paper saying that i was cheerful and friendly person
woah finally someone says that i am cheerful!
i like ppl who feels that i am cheerful or joyful or forever and always happy
becos no offense, i feel that this describes me

after that,
teacher begin to teach and also asked us how we feel treating different genders differently
like knowing their fav food or allergies
cooking for them blah blah blah
and there were students kept interrupting with their ans
and from there, i could tell they were experienced ppl HAHA
AIYO~!

after break, next activity:
we splitted in grps of girls and guys, there were only 4 girls and the rest were guys
i think altgt theres 20 plus ppl in class.. sigh
we were assigned to write and draw what we girls want and expect from a guy
and so happily, we all 4 got the same thinking haha
and vice versa~
den the teacher will take our paper and share with the class
i was quite disappointed when the results were announced
indeed, guys care more of the body and appearance while girls care more abt the inner character
in my class, the result was girls want guys who are able to make or grow them up, bringing them up not bringing them down, which also means, the guy got to be more mature than the girl
while the guys want girls to be more caring but not too sensitive, PRETTY HOT SEXY -.-
but i find my class very noisy at the same time and teacher couldnt continue lesson :(
and therefore we missed out alot of information abt this module
next week, we will be watching a video and have to write a report abt it

yup yup!!
well at least this is much better than the idea blueprint
but i wished Understanding r/s module will be the one in the afternoon so that my day maybe better

i am feeling so tired~
i love this module, so interesting and so true

hehe, one thing we learnt today and want you readers to ponder abt:
what do guys mean when they say "nothing"?
for example, "talking on the phone"...
girl : hey what are you doing?
guy: er... nothing

GIRLS:
A) are you thinking abt other girls?
B) why everytime i ask you what you doing always say nothing? are you hiding smth from me?
C) really? not lying? i dont believe! tell me la, it cant be possible that you are doing nothing. can you stop it and tell me what are you doing?

... hmmm... some of these points may sound familiar?? or there may be other responses as well.. haha
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going to get my leopard boots tmr instead as the person forgot abt it today
haha

facial was long enough for me to sleep
eye lashes :O:O:O

cant wait for saturday!
kk people jy ok?
i will jy too, tmr is netball and i am going to smile!
stay positive!

gtg do work now
bye
goodnight in adavance, sleeping early after this
ciao~
-peaceful, cheerful, awesomely awesome girl!