The ballerina

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

This is my story...

Its unfair :(

sigh, i am not going to say who but i really felt super bad and sad for you two

it was indeed unfair.. sigh

today each pair was given a duration of 6 mins to complete a presentation of 4 big questions

well, i think if more research is done, 6 mins is definitely NOT ENOUGH

veron and i had 12 slides and we were so afraid that 6 mins will pass super fast

before we present, we alr saw those who presented, some make it on time, some were ahead of time, some didnt even get to present the 4th question

we rushed! hehe my pronunciation again~! HAHA

and guess what?! we completed our presentation within 3mins

3mins plus plus leh DAMN ZAI RIGHT?

but dont know if its a good sign cos its like 12 slides within 3 mins

and i was speaking super fast, faster than a reporter haha

and after that, 2 of my classmates got to present individually, so the lecturer announced that each of them only had 3mins cos they will be presenting alone

really sad to say, at most they only get to present until the 2nd question

and my class were like making weird noises here and there

lecturer said to the both of them "sorry xxxx, i got to stop you, you know you only have 3mins why are you spending so much time on the "part", just go straight to the point!"

i meant they were presenting individually but "kena" the lecturer

i felt so bad for them

to be honest, my team was the fastest alr but we took 3mins plus

so its impossible for them to present 4 questions within three minutes!!

sigh, its just unfair! i felt so unfair for them

luckily the thing was only 4% but to me it matters ALOT :(

congrats to sueeee!!!!! she got into Resort World for her internship and today she went for her interview

hahaha with her hair sprayed BLACK!

so happy for her YO!

tonight i got to prepare myself for a social psychology presentation

and do the coin sorter report ALL BY MYSELF

and do the coin sorter powerpoint 95% BY MYSELF

sigh, honestly, i told myself that even humans make excuses, i got to accept it happily

haha i did it today but my heart was really emotionally pain which is why i am blogging here

sometimes, i really dont understand humans, its like why until now den ask me how this how that?

honestly, tmr is the day alr, its pointless unless you can find a way to "help" me or do smth abt it

cos whats the point of asking and me telling you what will be done

in the end isnt it that I got to do everything? EVERYTHING!

thanks for asking cos i can appreciate it but if you really wanted to help, you could have alr asked long time ago alr not until when tmr is the day and asking me what to do how to do whats the plan?

even if i tell you also NO USE cos the person who will be doing the entire thing is ME!

might as well, i do it all my own, present it myself since it was my idea and hand in everything myself

sigh

while walking home, i told my dad all these and you know what he said...

HAHA

he said "woah, actually you very solid leh! horh? i feel that you very solid, like you handling all these alone.."

by the way, his meaning of solid means zai! like can manage all tasks that kind

and he said this in chinese "i will confirm woo this type of girl"

I got a shock!! hahah burst into laughter

kept asking him why why why and whats with it

hahahaha he was laughing cos i asked to loud

can you imagine public people hearing a daughter asking her dad "why you want to woo me?"

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA

and his answer was"cos like this den the girl is pitiful marh"

woah, somemore got the word "marh"

oh wells WHAT?!??! dad likes pitiful girls -.-

i told him "might as well you get a female beggar, you can pity her everyday"

HAHAHHAA quite bad right but thats what we were talking abt HAHA joke!

kk got to do work alr

sigh!! going to show God nothing beats me down

of course there will be complaints but besides that, its the work that can be done :)

-Melinda

Melvin, dad said "thank you thank you"

hahahahhaah

btw, today is 31st January, thank God its ending soon!!!

Monday, January 30, 2012

This is my story...

I need to learn to be more patient and optimistic

so sorry, i got to be more understanding i guess...

This is my story...

went to school with my brother again :)

YAE!!!! saw Melvin after 2 stops hehe :P

although the bus was crowded and we were like quite apart, it was still cool to go to school with him HAHA aiyo! brother and sister term ok?!

today is a monday and haha

mel, i didnt forget ok?

all the best for work with nich.. have fun yoz

take care and serve the customer well HAHA

reached school late by 30mins becos bus was packed and travelling slowly

haha

when i reach class, did a surprising presentation haha

and you know what? i think i did well, my pronunciation and stuff YES!

cos i got influenced by someone last time and my pronunciation for presentations just suck

and now.. i am back to my normal self

talking abt normal self.. haha

its time to really forget abt the past and move on

be the original Sophia that she was last time

although yes, i did many wrong stuffs and dont think i deserve to be forgiven

BUT

i dont want to use the excuse that "EVERYONE'S IMPERFECT" that i did wrongdoings

its more like i have a choice if i want to strive to be perfect

if i sin, its ME that i am not perfect, its not humans but its ME

had a test today,. started studying at 11pm ytd WOAH CAN DIE!

and the lecturer actually added a topic inside when he said that that topic wont be tested -.-

gosh, felt cheated again and the whole class suffered!!

it practically killed everyone

when he reviewed the answer, you know what if that additional topic didnt come out, i could have gotten FULL MARKS

OH WOW! at least i know right? hahaha

and that additional topic, i kinda know how to do it.. so somehow correct, just a little wrong here and there cos i didnt even study?

oh wells, lab test was cancelled -.- !!

but better than nothing right? hehe more time to practice as well

dad's asking me hows revision.. ohwells

haven start :(

will start SOOON? -.-

going to have another surprising presentation in 5 mins time

hehe

i love to hear my voice WAHAHAHA

happy schooling everyone and for those who are having holidays...

make full use of it haha its an advice cos i dont even have enough holidays for myself..

envious~!

I miss Ritz-Carlton :')

-Melinda

study study study!!

i dont want to answer you HAHA :P

Sunday, January 29, 2012

This is my story...

I think I damn ZAI ~!

today's combined service starts at 10am and i woke up at 927am and i still managed to reach church ON TIME!!!! yae~!

and i didnt have time to choose what to wear ARGH hahaha

today's service was led in Chinese and translated in English

sigh... in a direct way, it wasnt really good but my way of saying it was like i pity the translator

its so sad for her, imagine i was her woah, i doubt i can even do that job

actually i was quite disappointed that you didnt want to go church :(

anyway, got to eat MACS and felt super bloated!!

gosh, i hate to eat for once leh

slept for hours and stuff

kk got to go and study!! OMG

the sudden feeling to study and to slack is coming again

and i wont want to let this happen!!!!

kkkkkkkkkkkkkkk people

bye~

-Melinda

actually, you wont know or sometimes you may never know that you had that something or something(s) in you until someone tells you about it

the moment whereby you know and silence just shuts you up but due to the fact that you dont wish to create awkwardness and you forced urself to speak... sigh

you got to understand why i was quiet :)

thank you so much :)

Saturday, January 28, 2012

This is my story...

Melvin is taller than me....................................................................................................................................................................... by a few cm

haha hi Melvin, i know you want to read this HAHA happy?

[next title] HAHA

Church Steamboat!!!

today i waited for melvin like a retard at the lift lobby oh wells ahahaha NOT ANGRY!

ok next, we went for the registration for the steamboat which was 5 bucks for each person

haha i received an ANGPAO!!! yeah and with two coin chocolates inside -.-

Melvin and I talked to Pastor Edwin about Christians doing this and that haha questioning him ..

and each time we voice out our question, its like Melvin knows who i am referring to that kind of thing HAHA damn funny!

next was steamboat, my table had Liqun, Isaac, Melvin, me of course, Joey, Wen Cong, Clara, clara's friend (oh crap), Amelia (my dg girl) and Aunty Felicia if i am not wrong hehe

yeah and steamboat time!!! i love the soup :)

and we had this "quite failed" game that we had a piece of paper each and got to go around to ask ppl to sign their name according to the boxes that are related to them.. dk how to describe

and next, each grp got to compete against each other to form this word using sunflower seed!

isnt it cute?

theres hanyu pin yin

next, everyone proceeded to the youth room

and before that Melva let me tried apple tea, he asked if i could help him finish

argh!! i was so stupid to believe him leh and it tasted SALTY and den SPICY

OMG MELVA!!!! you so bad!

we played a game that haha i dont wish to play

dog and bone cum tic tac toe! hahah

Melvin was suppose to be in my grp and we kept competing each other WHATSOMESSY

and EMMA!!! yae!! i love her haha.. i love to hug her hahah and she has a Hello Kitty BAG :O

and my girl Chelsea - shes so pretty :) - Isaac's sister

and they declared that we are all SISTERS haha

i am DA JIE - SO OLD LA :(

today someone guessed i was 19 .... HAHAHAHHAHAHA true though

zhong jie is Chelsea and xiao jie is EMMA hahahaha

they were like pulling and pushing me around hahah UNCONTROLLABLE girls!

so many funny ppl in yz

just now i was too lazy to stand up and so the pastor wanted to meet those who will be staying overnight and he came to me and i ended up being surrounded by ppl

they were standing and i was sitting down OMG HAHAHHA, help?

melva asked "SOP SOP SOP, staying over?"

sop said NOPE

hahahaha dad's sad

followed Leane and Emma to buy food, their safety is my responsibility

i promised the pastor alr =X

they are rich kids mann! and i was carrying the hello kitty bag with a bright red kiddy jacket over, i look like a kid? HAHAH

played some games before leaving and sending off melvin my brother (haha blah~der) to the busstop :)

happy day!! my dad didnt allow me to go at first, i have to go cos i was afraid my girls will get lost and i didnt regret going

hahaha

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DADDY!!

YOU ARE AWESOME DADDY ON EARTH!! AND I LOVE YOU!!

and i wish everybody happy! peaceful day of the world Haha

sorry melvin, my blog post always very long HAHA

-melinda~poo!

This is my story...

TUMBLRING TIME : gosh so much to tumblr

( in random order - should be from the bottom to the top argh who cares )

mel, for ur ted!

rabbie and ted? haha melody see this so cool~!

This is my story...

HAHA CUTEE!

i dont know actually it is but when you asked me, i just seem to be cheered? Haha i dont know why

ok today's news

ita DAD's birthday!!! yeah hurray and the worse part of it was.... i didnt get anything

he said he didnt want to celebrate his birthday cos he hates all these occasion

he guess they are unecessary to be happy abt cos everyday is normal but still, i know deep down in his heart, he will expect something

card will be the last resort because i couldnt find anything to get for him

my brother memorise my hp number !!!

omg so touched so touched!

he only calls my dad and i when he is bored

hahaha but most of the time he will call my dad cos i will always ans "i am having lesson now"

HAHAH

ok i remembered i ever blogged and said that i wont complain on my blog right?

haha if you bother to scroll down the previous blogs

omg complains are overflooding to the max

oh wells, imagine one of my girls in my dg stalks me and reads my blog

omg what a dgl am i? sad to say right?

sometimes i do blog in a private blog but the sad thing is that becos its private and thats why no one reads

i am weird

sometimes i really want to blog abt something but i dont want that someone to read but another someone to read get it?

in a dilemma whether to blog or not?

whose advantage if not i got to resolve this to a heartalk session

oh woosh... suddenly remember what i wanted to blog

today, i ate half of my normal portion of rice for lunch

and i felt so full to an extent that i cant even move - too full

woah, ok it was proven that my appetite shrunk

and it seems to be like a habit that i eat such an amount of food everyday

good or bad? who knows? God knows :)

quote this "I can't change the past but I can change the future into a better past. *-* Risks are what make life worth living."

dont you think it somehow makes sense?

it does to me :)

sigh, so much things to do and so many things to overcome

really eh, humans ....

OK STOP COMPLAINING!

argh sharcks, forget it! you know what

i dont tink i can dont complain

it can be possible but no yeah~

whatever la

what i said last blog dont feel it right now

-Melinda

Friday, January 27, 2012

This is my story...

Talking to 9 people with 6 active responders

omg, i cant even breathe properly

cyber typing kills!!!

today finally all projects are almost done and hope all goes well

sigh..

netball was good today but not up to my expectation

i got to be more focus next time, next time will be the last time for me and RETIRE!

step down! oh yes

i will definitely miss Netball

-Melinda

Thursday, January 26, 2012

This is my story...

Humans are cute, dont you think so ?

today, I took mrt to orchard and met my class at 10am plus

everyones there woah haha

ok, this was our plan : putting a sign "PLEASE DO NOT SIT" on the benches along the orchard road and observe people's reaction to it and survey them

well, our testing location was just outside Ngee Ann City

the benches outside here... i cant find the picture but its like a long bench with 2 railings on it so that 3 ppl can sit? yeah~!

i brought masking tape, which practically saved the grp cos no one brought, luckily i remembered

we taped the sign in the middle of the bench

we placed on 2 benches, and stay it as 2 as we dont want to pissed people off :P

my grp consist of sue, james, wenny, zipeng and me

sue was in charge of taking photos, zipeng as observer, wenny as actor, james and i as surveyers

crap, i felt that scary feeling again, its like giving out flyers but not that bad anymore though

my first surveyee was a woman who smokes haha

i asked her why did / didnt she follow the sign, she said "er, just follow lorh, could be government rule later got problem"

HAHAHAHA

i asked surveyed another guy from Jakarta, and he only speaks chinese.. arghhh

how to say "project" in chinese? my chinese translation really like failed -.-

but it worked out well

after that i also interview 2 ah ma haha and all they said was "dont know"

hahaha i asked in chinese "do you know what does the sign says?"

and one of the ahma sat down :O

the other answered "oh, we dont understand english" HAHAHA wts

den i said "actually it means cannot sit" haha den the ahma jumped out of the seat, "huh, bu ke yi zou ah orh orh"

HAHAHAH EPIC SIAAA~

they asked me where is ngee ann city haha and i said "ok, ngee ann city is there but do survey first ok?"

was i rude? but no choice, its like you give me a little, i give you a little as well.. HEHE :P

next, i followed zipeng to survey an old couple

he addressed them as "hello, ah gong ah ma" i got a shock! like this also can?? O.O

convo was in chinese and they were super friendly

zipeng : do you know what does the sign mean?

ahma : dont know but we are tired so sit lorh, cant read english

zipeng asked "do you know that the sign meant you cant sit on the bench?"

ahma answered "na wo zou pang bian lorh" HAHAHAH

she meant as long as dont sit on the sign can alr HAHAH

ah gong was smart, he answered "maybe the sign is there if the benches are under paint or spoil den at least let us know but we dont understand english"

i asked : if this is the only seat orchard, and there is a sign here, what will you do, will you still insist on sitting?

ahma : den wo zou lou ti lorh (HAHAHAHAH no bench den sit on stairs... OMG EPIC EPIC)

ahahhahahah so cute right?

hahahahahha

we were almost done.. i did a little bit of acting

and we found a couple -tourist sat on our bench when there is a sign there

they were looking at the Singapore big map haha

james surveyed them

they were from Korea.. and they said that they saw ppl sitting and so they sat as well

HAHAHA omg so cute!!!

first time i really find humans super cute in the way they think

there was even a couple of angmohs, discussing if they shld sit hahaha cos they kept pointing at the sit HAHAHA

done and wenny called the lecturer

YES! we were the first grp to complete! yeah bravo! great job guys~!

went to Heren to have macs and slack.. did i spell heren right?

my dad constructed that HAHA if i spell wrongly, he will lose face haha

and talking about food, omg, i hate to eat alr

its unfair

its like i dont want to eat and theres SO MUCH to finish you know argh.. like KFC (sorry mel)

dont know what happen to me..

i got to admit my appetite shrunk

went to catch the movie : XIAO HAI BU HUAI

omg i teared like crazy during the show, omg whats wrong with me mann

i kept tearing like aiyo, waterfall leh haha

it was nice to catch and after the movie, i am scared to be a parent and mother in the future =X

i felt super sad for you

i thought i was exaggerating as if ur life was mine

you shld be innocent right? dont be too naive to trust others

sigh, let time heal you :)

today, i saw someone who behaved like you and another who behaved like me

didnt realise until now how ugly i was last time

how unpleasant we were

i was so sinful and unholy :(

projects are all piling up and giving me headaches argh!

stress!

netball tmr

-Melinda

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

This is my story...

its 11pm and i am blogging hehe :P

had buffet dinner at Mandarin Orchard Hotel - triple three

the buffet provided all sorts of food - Indian, Chinese cuisine, Jap food and Italian delicacies and desserts so so much

the first thing i tried was chawanmushi, and do you want to know why i type it in small caps?

ok la, sushi tei one much much nicer! my dad didnt want to try, anyway it wasnt worth trying as well

and next, i took fish, so funny, one fish on my plate and thats all

next, i went to get all sorts of food, like the Jap fried prawn, a type of fish called "xue yu", potato, some sushi salmon BLAH

afterwhich, not forgetting my aweseome cheesy pasta woots~!

the chef made it for me and of course it was worth to take a picture of what he made for me haha

he is an Italian... WOW! my dad said he was handsome haha

prepared by Italian chef - Justin, i chose prawn :)

and after this, i felt full HAHA, pasta what?! but not really that reason..

took beef for dad and ham for me

followed by desserts and ice cream

ok enough, i dont want to go back to my eating habit to eat and eat

STOP!

talked crap, listened to crap haha

i am like my dad's new gf

CNY is like over and now got to go back to sch term ARGHHH

work and homework and tutorials and projects and tests and exams

ALRIGHT!

1111pm make a wish

today before going for the buffet dinner, my dad talked to me alot

you know i love to listen to how guys talk, but thats if they make sense like my dad

some guys, they talk and they can really turn you off and make you feel sleepy and that they are boring -.- yes, i met alot of them in my life haha

and we were still talking abt the spillage of hot soup ytd HAHA

can you believe it? i meant an outsider will be like "HUH, still talking abt this?"

well, we werent complaining but we were analysing on human character

and he linked it to Christianity and let me think and see the "suppose to be" large difference between Christian and a non christian..

wow really you know, my dad and i thinks the same and after his analysis, i said " this is such a rare thinking"

hehe i am rare, we are rare

which is a good thing

cos nowadays, to be honest, TECHNOLOGIES are really conquering the world and affecting relationships between humans

for example, like a mum needs to sms her son to come down for dinner that kind of thing

we are too reliant on these that we dont even bother to open our mouth to speak

do you know even just a sentence can bond ppl

when we are bored, we rather play iphone games den to open up ourselves to socialise and talk to people

most christians are doing more of the worldly stuff than to stick to those traditions

oh wells, so sad right?

my ah ma said "my eyes and eyebrow looked like my mum's"

and ah gong was so like me, love salt on meat

well as i said earlier, not only i remind my dad abt my mum, even my ahma thought so, like she said i laughed like her, i behaved like her etc

sigh, i felt so bad for a moment

tired tired tired

tmr will be doing an experiment in orchard to observe humans' response and so on

and maybe catch a movie and go home do work alr argh!

-Melinda :)

CNY is finally over

i need time management to really study

Monday, January 23, 2012

This is my story...

WHAT A CNY

oh come on, what am i talking abt??

ok to be honest, i was excited about today's CNY

i dont know why but to me, it portrays a new year of afresh and hope :)

went to visit my biological mum before visiting my ah ma HAHA

i bought this for my mum :) was suppose to give this to her but i got lost

haha and NOW I KNOW HOW TO GO THERE MYSELF ALR :)

spot a butterfly? haha

when i put the flower at the flower holder, my dad said "oh, so nice hmm.."

me : i added the butterfly

dad : hmmm so nice, very nice

me : i am the butterfly

haha my mum loves sunflowers and tulips

went to ah ma's hse and ate her mee sua as usual

this time, my relatives could not even recognise me

well, i guess its becos of my hair and so on haha

yeah and compliments received

i guess right, i shld really learn to take in compliments

one of the reasons why i could not take was becos i was afraid i will get arrogant and so on

den defeats the purpose of being humble ...

and it became a habit for me alr, argh take take take it all, take take take it all HAHA

next went to my grandma's hse (dad's side) and ate noodles

OMG for once, i ate so much in a day, i was so full

slept for 2 hrs before leaving off to my stepmum's side

oh wells~! somethings are just meant not to be said and it will be better at status quo .

we were the first family to reach there, everyone said that i grew up haha

of course grew up, not grew down right? ahah KIDDING!

i was smiling at this small little kid haha, he had thick specs on and is ard 3 or 4 years old

when i was sitting in the kitchen with my dad beside me standing, he came into the kitchen, tapped my knee and said "i want you to play with me"

I GOT A SHOCK and my dad was super happy "OMG he wants to play with you, go go go, he is waiting for you in the room GO!"

hahaha erm... weird cos 1) we didnt even talk before, 2) we never met, 3) i only smiled at him

HAHAHHA when my dad followed me into the room, i asked him "you want to play with me?"

he answered "yes"

OMG OMG OMG... hahaha for once, i can attract kids -.- OOK

so he told me to cook some food (toy food) and he will go to work (drive in some toy car)

hahah so cute!! and he gave me "money", that he wrote on some rough paper haha

i asked if i could help in the kitchen cos practically theres nothing much to do and i dont want to stone on a chair in someone's hse and with the fact that everyone has arrived and food was alr ready on the table

an auntie told me no need to help but to help to put the stools outside and so i did

my dad sat down and i sat beside him

suddenly my mum's third sis wanted to give a bowl of hot porridge soup to my dad

an uncle was talking to my dad and without any notice he accidentally hit the bowl of hot porridge and the bowl dropped onto the floor with a big splash not on my dad but on me

OH DAY! bad luck indeed.. my white shirt which cost $40 was ruined with patches of brown colour soup, yup got scald too

my mum brought me into the kitchen and aunties here and there panick

one sprayed some white powerish cream on my hand and leg, another giving me whole lot of tissues

my dad came into the kitchen, he got splashed as well but not as bad as me

what to do? i didnt have spare clothes and so the only solution was to go back home and get changed or smth

to be honest, i dont know why, normally i am very calm abt this matter but i just wanted to blow it up and so i was a little pissed off

left the hse with dad with lots of embarrassment

i helped my dad to wipe the soup from his face, omg how on earth will this even happen

as my dad was driving, i told him, i dont want to go back, he said same too HAHA

but thinking back, we cant be so bad right, and so nvm we decided to go back

hahahah my dad was laughing out of a sudden and he asked me "why is it on us ah? we like the main actor and main actress" haha

imagine, if it happened to a baby or my mum, woah DISASTER

so thank God it happened to us :)

and through this my dad analysed so much abt human character - like ppl pushing the blame here and there and stuff

so cool!!!!! i didnt know theres so much to talk abt even through such a short and small matter

this is SOCIAL PSYCHOLOGY

and out of a sudden, i laughed

super funny and i asked my dad "dont you think this is quite funny? like why hahaha"

and this bad incident turned into an optimistic thinking

and so my dad sent me back to my grandma's hse to change and him back home to change and den fetch me back to my mum's side hse again

when we went back, other relatives came as well and their compliments for me totally erased what happened just now hehe :P

hehe so happy :)

my cousins told me to bring my mum to shopping hehe :P

you shld know what i meant right? haha quite bad actually =X

went back to grandma's hse to have dinner

argh, i really hate to eat ! too much for today, might as well dont eat tmr

and tmr's buffet at mandarin hotel for reunion on bio-mum's side :)

heard theres CHAWANMUSHI!!! omg, i got to let my dad and brother try! once in a life time food for them

my dad hates jap and korean food :(

super tired aiyo

like spent my day sleeping

and theres homework not done yet ... OH WELLS

thinking of not to eat the whole day of tmr until it comes to dinner cos its buffet HAHA

kidding i guess :S

Happy CNY people, hope you all get lots of money :)

-Melinda

Sunday, January 22, 2012

This is my story...

And so, my prediction was right

went to my dad's church today

and he still remember my fav chinese praise song HAHA

that fav song of mine, my dad ever played on guitar and me singing along

what a good band HAHA

anyway, went for a 1030am lunch -.-

and went to a golf place to "slack", shld have known to sleep at home

went to find for my "future" working area - Emirates (maybe)

but neh.. no results still

afterwhich, went back home to have a long nap

gosh, i always feel so tired

totebag still not received yet and i guess i will just leave that stupid thing aside and get another one

the another choice will definitely be more expensive but i guess i will just sacrifice my angpao money or not, not sure still... shld i?

ARGH! 20.90 wasted - this is so annoying!\

felt cheated

so people, if you ever want to get a tote bag, dont ever get it from fb!

and the fact that theres nothing at all to shop abt, my dad wanted me to wear red for chinese new year visit which is so impossible

cos practically, i dont have one and even if i find something red to buy, it wont be the one that i wish to wear for the visits

too late to say abt this though

hehe

anyway, Happy Chinese New Year people :)

have a great day ahead

i am still busying abt my school work and how annoying right?

-Melinda

This is my story...

i guess i dont have a choice but to go back to facebook

RIGHT?

4JS, Random 6 + 1, church dg grp, church YAM grp maybe, dg with pastor grp and netball grp

sigh, with just all these grpings, i got to go back

if not things are hard for them

so might as well.. yupps yupps

well, i dont think i want to torture you readers to see my blog miaing like so poor thing right

actually, i had blogged but just didnt publish and so these are them :)

Saturday, January 21, 2012

This is my story...

ALL ALONE IN YOUR OWN WORLD

I dont know why but I couldnt stop tearing out of a sudden

i meant, i dont know how it happened but ...

i was doing my powerpoint slides and suddenly tears just started flowing and rolling down my cheeks

my mind diverted to "how scary can this world be"

i am sad, i am scared

i wonder why, why and WHY?

somehow i got reminded of what ur cg leader said to me abt "smth", and i just could not stop tearing

WHY?

why cant both gender have the same thinking.. i dont understand

even after such a long time, i still cant get over why this world got to be so scary

no one to protect anyone

sigh

theres so much to talk abt this but i dont want to get emotional over this but somehow i just know i will cry abt this again

today woke up late and realised the fact that it will be too rushing for me to attend felicia's birthday surprise

sorry papa, i love you and Happy Birthday

kiwi was too tired =X

walked to church to save transportation money for a church meeting for the DGLs

next, slacked around with Joey and bought 2 curry puffs for 60 cents

as in buy one get one free kind of thing haha cool cool

next, went to YAM and broke into our YAM bible study grps and studied the book of Mark

hehe got a ride in Michael's car to home and therefore, saved money for transportation again

thank you Michael

wen cong, if you want to lead YAM worhsip, i dont mind but i prefer to be the backup singer though :P

movie outing was cancelled :(

did WSS powerpoint slides and yup!!!

argh, thank you Bing Chen, after letting this out, i felt much better :)

oh well, no one was online ...

God, i know i will never overcome this thing and i dont want to as well

because i dont want to easily give in into this, i want to be strong and strict abt this

-Melinda

This is my story...

I suck at rejecting people, and this is how I get my benefits :P

as mentioned earlier in my previous blog post, i wanted to stay at home to either rot or to do some projects...........

BUT

nicholas called me this morning WHEN I WAS SLEEPING, to meet up at 18th Chef and so on

he wrote this when i was glancing through the menu, trying to find something delicious but NEH!

argh! sorry nich but i really cant eat

we talked as i watched him eat

next, met jo and we went to vivo to eat sushi tei

i still cant eat! oppsy haha

and this was what nich offered to treat me :P

slurp slurp**

not forgetting Chawanmushi OF COURSE hehe.. my first time eating this from sushi tei but my friends felt that this wasnt enough for my lunch and so i got to order this (below)

six omellette sushi, jo ate one HAHA :)

isnt this a benefit?

next, we went all sorts of places to get a branded wallet for felicia

was finding for rings also but dont have :( oh wells~

lincoln and pancy smsed me where am i.. well, actually i was suppose to go for a korean buffet with Olenos

since i went out with nich, i got to be fair enough to go out with them right?

so rushed back home for dinner, taught my bro maths, so glad he could catch up well

next rushed to novena and THEY HAVEN EVEN STARTED EATING

it was alr 9pm OMG

but as i waited for them, pancy said "Aaron fetch you"

honestly, i got a shock! why aaron? i know he is like my super close friend but we haven been seeing each other for so so long oh wells

we met and hugged :) likka LONG TIME NO SEE~!

hahahah, we asked hows life HAHA

well, i mentioned fine and also told him abt what happened and so on

and he asked "any better now?"

hahahahahahahha -----why not? HAHA he so joke!

when i reached there, zipeng, pancy, lincoln and nigel were alr at the counter :O

haven eat yet!!!!!!!!!!

nvm, 6 ppl altgt and we went to a table and blah blah blah

cook food, eat, a table for 6

the good thing was that dray was coming and so i kinda got to eat FOR FREE

one person is like $22-$24, like what the!?

i felt bad but pancy and lincoln and zipeng said like no need to pay la

cos i was suppose to come after they finish eating but oh wells

and i actually ate! haha thank you Olenos

nich and jo were so worried that i will experience anorexia nervosa

it is People who intentionally starve themselves suffer from an eating disorder

well, mine is not intentionally oh purlease~!

tmr celebrating felicia's birthday at 1030am til 12noon i guess

1pm in church for meeting

4 to 6pm for YAM

rush to town or a place (to be confirmed), to watch the movie abt "XIAO HAI BU HUAI"

hahahhaha Joshua Ang inside (my used to be bf) hahaha

BUSY MUCH!

i am down with one more report to do which is abt the coin sorter :)

chinese new year is coming, so not looking forward to it cos although its holidays, i have things to studies ARGH!

-- Aaron!! dont slack ok? study study study!!!

melinda~poo! --- I miss this name so much

Friday, January 20, 2012

This is my story...

STRESS

THURSDAY:

despite the fact that i didnt eat and people dont really know abt it, a lot of people still offered me food out of no where, which i find this feeling blissful~

today, olivia from netball (vice cap), offered me banana cake

it was nice :)

and for once, water tasted so nice!!

today the main focus will be abt netball :(

i got to say i do love netball but ....

its human's imperfection that sometimes affect me

well, if you are not happy about this decision and really wanted to be ..

all i can say is that i dont have a choice, and the decision is alr made

by throwing ur tantrums at others is not even a solution to solve ur jealousy/disappointment

and not throwing tantrums at others but at ppl who are part of the committee

we need some respect so yeah

i hope you will get over it and maybe think on the bright side that you can try to help in any areas

i understand how you feel

you can do it :)

today after netball, i saw felicia!!!

OMG

she said "omg, sophia, ur hair so long alr eh, it means i haven been seeing you for such a long time!! omg omgomg"

woah, i didnt even realise it but yes, it has been such a long time since i last met her

we talked for a while

really hope that we will be able to meet up soon

this morning, abigail sms me and asked me how am i and wants to meet up with my friends as well

the snakes i guess~

but i cant cos i am tight with work and so on

and friends are asking me out here and there

it will be unfair if i tell one side of them that i am busy and i go out with the other side

and so i decided to stay at home to fully commit into my work

sorry friends, sigh

life is always unfair but sometimes we have to try our best to make things fair HAHA

having a headache for the whole day

i guess i am tired

i hope that whatever problems you are facing, you will share it with me becos i feel that i can know and share ur burden :)

dont keep things to urself anymore, you had it enough!

-Melinda

Thursday, January 19, 2012

This is my story...

31 days ---------

its hard! i am forcing myself to blog

its the very first time that i dont feel like blogging

i will get back soon, probably a month or so

----------coma

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

This is my story...

I LIKE TO GO SCH WITH MY BROTHER :)

that brother is not my biological brother, i meant brother-in-christ

dont get it wrong

it just seems like theres a family member to accompany you to go school

so that i wont feel alone or emo at a corner

we dont have to talk in the bus

just sit and do our own stuff

thats an older bro i wanted

sigh but i only have a young one

these few days, i had been feeling lonely

and ppl dont really understand me

some kept asking why did i deactivate my fb acct, all i can do is to smile and say "just MIA lorh"

SOMEONE LIKE YOU

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hLQl3WQQoQ0&ob=av2e

"I heard that you're settled down

that you found a girl and you're married now

i heard that your dreams came true

guess she gave you things I didnt give to you

old friend, why are you so shy?

aint like you to hold back or hide from the light

i hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited

but i couldnt stay away, i couldnt fight it

i had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded

that for me, it isnt over

Nevermind, i'll find someone like you

i wish nothing but the best for you, too

Dont forget me, i begged, i remember you said

sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead

You know how the time flies

only yesterday was the time of our lives

we were born and raised in a summer haze

bound by the surprise of our glory days

i hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited

but i couldnt stay away, i couldnt fight it

i had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded

that for me, it isnt over yet

Nevermind, i'll find someone like you

i wish nothing but the best for you, too

Dont forget me, i begged, i remember you said

sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead

Nothing compares, no worries or cares

Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made

who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, i'll find someone like you

i wish nothing but the best for you, too

Dont forget me, i begged, i remember you said

sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead

Nevermind, i'll find someone like you

i wish nothing but the best for you, too

Dont forget me, i begged, i remember you said

sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead

sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead"

This is my story...

QUENTON SAID THAT I LOST WEIGHT

today i met Quenton (one of my Olenos friend)

it has been such a long time i had met him and so i gave him a hug

and he said that i lost weight

:o :o :O :O

I was so happy to hear that

he said "ok ur face shape is more sharper and yeah" - in other words, no meat

and "and ur face is getting better"

THANK YOU QUENTON! i really hope i can trust you to say the truth

i asked him " eh eh eh, which part of me is skinny?"

- my hand? i showed him my hand

- my legs? i showed him my legs

he answered "ur butt"

ERRRRRR..... well, sounds pervertic but i like the answer

honestly, i think i have a fat butt haha even my dad says so :(

so i was happy abt the answer haha

i kept asking "huh, really ah really ah? OMG OMG OMG!"

and he so bad, he said i lost weight and my friend gain weight hahaha

i want sexy legs UHHHHH

tmr's netball will be different

cos the "young generation" will be leading

back to my own term that i will be under ppl, not ppl under me

i dont like it to let ppl under me, like so bad

to be honest, i think out of the blue, my netball skills are getting better and better

i can shoot balls into the net and so on

it has been a month plus since i last shop

my "shop" means - GO OUT OF HSE TO SHOP

it excludes blogshopping HAHA

i am glad i am saving money cos practically i cant eat and nothing seems to be food pleasing

so i am always saving up my lunch money which is a good thing

more money for shopping or other stuff for savings as well

and skinner than before to get the weight and body i want

and i was glad that tuesday, yixuan offered me her sweet

becos i didnt eat lunch

and the feeling was like you know you are hungry but when you see food, it just turns you off

even when i was thinking about 18th chef

i kept forcing myself to eat lunch and it wasnt enjoyable cos its like when you see food, you dont feel like eating, and i get full easily

so i guess i am back to those days when i always eat two meals a day haha

i am always feeling tired

practically i am always busy with work and so on

internship starting soon and maybe i am going to take this chance to get back to my own self

i always feel like sleeping and wish that i wont wake up

likka coma

This is my story...

18th January

alright guys, i guess i got to blog right?

i meant.. i also dont know how to say

things are hard to let go in life but you just got to do it in order for others' own good

yes! imma heartbreaker

you seem to be moving on, so maybe i shld also den

"Just gonna stand and watch me burn,

well thats alright because i "like" the way it hurts

Just gonna stand there and hear me cry,

well thats alright because i "love" you way you lie

I love the way you lie"

"So much for my happy ending Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
All the stuff that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING

Monday, January 9, 2012

This is my story...

difficulty in breathing

thank you melvin, thank you melody

Melinda, you are a bitch!

but i thank God that everything is fine right now

i dont want to have enemies in life

thank God for peace, i was direct but i did it with no regrets

This is my story...

i will only miss you tonight, the one who was lost quite long time ago in my life

yeah, God Bless you :)

church started well with a tired spirit

oh no, i cant say tired in front of God .. i sinned

was cold today

talked to alot of ppl today

had a long chat with auntie serene today

she talked to me abt being a leader, so on and so forth

and when i stepped into the yz room, joey and i just anyhow sit with the sec ones yeah!

and i begin to talk

WHAT? SO NOT SOPHIA! BUT SHE JUST DID IT! HURRAY!

thank God for it cos i prayed for this

serene told me "hey, looks like you are doing great!"

thank you :)

the sec ones also talked to me, like self initiate the convo and all :)

GOOD! GOOD! GOOD! it also means that i am doing a good job as well

pastor told the sec ones to stand as this is their first time here joining the YZers

next was the DGLs and announced joey and i as the new ones

next was committees team members

and lastly was newcomers, apparently a girl stood up and pastor was like "Sophia, you take care ah?"

WOAH, i new dgl den you entrust me with a newcomer, i felt so honour but shock at the same time

really thank God and so i also included her to be in my dg

so in total, my grp has like 8 girls and i will be leading the grp tgt with michelle :)

actually the newcomer wasnt newcomer, she kinda mis-listen the question

she thought first time in YZ as in literally first time in the room, not first time being in the church

before we left, michelle and i did a brief introduction to the grp and gave them our numbers

hahah one girl asked if she could prank call me, i was like "WHAT!?!??!" hahaha

good!

and they said that i looked 18, or 17, or 15

OMG 15!?!??! YOU SERIOUS? aiyo! i want to stay young but not tooooo HAHAH

kidding la oh wells but we all bonded quite well and so i guess everything seemed fine

yeah!

Melvin fished me hahahahah!

he was holding a fishing rod in CHURCH den i opened my mouth and he caught me haha

melva was laughing , had a talk with him and vanissa before i left hehe :P

i want to go swensens laaa

went out for lunch with melody

first KFC eaten in 2012

first KOI drank in 2012 - thanks Mark

went shopping in vivo :) cant find for rings :( nothing to shop also

as usual~ shop sian (sob sian)

exams coming soon and i wished that all sadness in my life were all just a dream

live on and stay happy

also want to thank mel nich and jo for buying me the envelop bag

its awesomely nice hehe

and thank you mel for ur hong kong msg HAHA!

so sweet!

so many things i want to thank God for to firstly bring me into this world

second to let me go thru so many, opps, not so many, i meant SO MUCH shit in this world and life of mine and made me stronger in order to encourage those who are weaker

thank you

this is the song that i always sing with a sincere heart :)

Lord, I offer my life to You - click it!

read the lyrics and listen to the song :')

goodnight ppl :)

all the best for those who are getting their o'levels results

study hard for those who are going to start sch tmr :)

give thanks to God for every single thing in life :)

-Melinda

Saturday, January 7, 2012

This is my story...

oh wow, friday's (ytd) halo was much larger than tonight's one
just that today's one have colours

but i promised that ytd's one was really super big

ytd's halo was 100 times bigger than tonight's halo

really!!!!!!! but no colour, just like a lighting colour only but super cool

tonight's a small one.. oh wells

ytd's one much nicer and cooler, for once, i really thought judgement day coming cos i never seen something like this before and somemore SO SO BIG

you might not believe me but until when you see it urself..

This is my story...

i was lazy to wake up this morning cos of ytd's prawning

anyway, went to school and sue was so sweet to wait for at the busstop despite the fact that we were a min late or so

it was freezing cold, totally wore the wrong top

met Kelly at her CCA booth hehe

and took many lollipops from her, just for fun haha

I gave mine to Melody

after the lesson, rushed to Pastor Edwin's hse!!

so cool, nice food there

played with his daughter - named Sophia as well, haha

shes like only one and a half years old

haha, i stole her rabbit and put it in my pocket, haha she was tapping on her dad's knee and pointing at me HAHAH kept saying "rabbit.. rabbit!"

haha

she loves me when i touch and tickle her legs haha

her face complexion was like O-M-G

hahah so smooth so nice

had a great chat with pastor's wife and debra, lynn and others

girls talk.. haha

took a walk with the DGLs to from his hse to church

was like only 7 mins walk?

was talking to joey, almost out of breath

it will be my first time that we all will embark our new journey to YAM - Young Adult Ministry

my grp have ppl that i know so not too bad haha

my leader was Michael, he is a nice guy :)

well, i am sure i will get to know my whole grp soon :) i believe haha come on!

after the interesting bible quiz, had some refreshments outside

had a great long talk with mel, melva, melvin, valencia, vanissa, michael, so many ppl that i know and wished to talk to more and more

was suppose to go vivo but forget it .. nvm anyways, today is a busy day for me HAHA!

i preferred to stay at home though

tmr got to go service and den YZ

WOAH! social social social!!!

and will be having a meeting abt the YZ steamboat soon haha

melva wants to bring fish -.-

i want to prawn again! hahaha

goodnight

This is my story...

after sucha long period of time, you are still the chosen one

good! good! very good!

I have nothing to say

want to try? have a taste of how i feel?

you be in my shoe and i be in urs la

see how den..

you will never know, or rather you never know me :(

you thought ~~~

I wished ~~~

Friday, January 6, 2012

This is my story...

BottleTREE Seafood Restaurant

this is the place - Bottletree Seafood Restaurant

DAD'S ACTING CUTE -.- , "cute" i meant HAHA

he caught a prawn!!

these were the people who went for the prawning (from left to right) : Melvin, Valencia and Melva

Valencia and Melva were competing with each other to see who will catch first prawn and also who will catch the most prawns haha

THIS WAS OUR TABLE NUMBER haha, i didnt choose this haha

I love the lightings there

I love this candle light :) its on out table haha so cool

I really do admire the light decorations in the dark, see, nice right? so nice :)

by the way, the lighting on top were the mrt train HAHAHA

Valencia and her prawn .. cooked prawn :)

Melva and his LOBSTER :O

met melvin in sch and left, thank you zipeng for telling me the directions and all

we ate fried rice haha, i served everybody hehe :P

the guys were so nice to bbq the prawns for us

well, when melva taught me how to bbq the prawn, i was like :O

valencia had the same thinking as well, we clearly saw how the prawn struggled til death

i cant do this, its too evil

when melva brought the second prawn to us, i stopped him

we were like hey melva, dont bbq la, like very bad leh.. so poor thing

imagine if we were the prawns :(

i feel for them, i rather just catch and throw back to the pond

anyway, as we all left the place, we saw a Halo !! its like a big circular lighting around the moon!!

its super nice seriously!!!

its damn big!! its super nice, like once in a life time experience will i get to see something like this

woah, look at God's creation~ its so wonderful TOTALLY PERFECT AND FLAWLESS

went to school for one and a half hour..

open house of my school ends tmr which also means i can get free milo!!! i want!

i love cold milo :)

going to have a briefing about my internship tmr for 4 hrs

den rush to pastor's hse for lunch den to church

and maybe going out to vivo haha

i want to buy a ring though see how

went to the Khatib Mrt station and sent Melva and Valencia off as they were taking mrt

and took the same bus together with Melvin :)

excited for tmr, its going to be a great day!!!

today, sue gave me a christmas present hahah, thank you, sweet girl!!

the temptation to go to Changi Airport to see my friends coming back is so tempting right now

btw, the test that i studied during church camp and cried over it like crazy

i got to say i pass, like 58%

but thank God really! i wasnt really happy abt it but i was glad that i passed

and guess what, as the lecturer went through the paper, he forgot to add the extra 3 marks behind! HAHA, SO HAPPY! and so after the calculation, i got 62% in the end

hahahhaa

today my inventory management lecturer was so sarcastic

he asked "should i say out the names of those who might have the tendency to fail this module?"

PLS LA, OBVIOUSLY NO RIGHT? COME ON!

but he was so tempted to say and so one of my classmates suggested to read out the student number

luckily my number wasnt read out, almost haha

thank God again!

got to go sch tmr so yup!

goodnight ppl

-Melinda

This is my story...

argh! i forgot what i wanted to say
crap!! but anyway, yeah! going to have a 2 hour tutorial before i leave off to fish
i was broke and so melva was telling me that he will give me all the prawns that he will catch later for me haha for dinner!! so sweet right aiyah but i will feel bad
eating too much prawns is not good for healthy actually
like after you pierce ur ear or injure urself - DONT EAT PRAWNS
yup!

tmr going to sch at 9am til 1pm den rush like crazy to pastor edwin's hse which actually is under my block HAHAH
den go to church tgt with the church ppl!! excited~! haha! going to meet those ppl in the young adult ministry, will feel like a new comer or so
hehe!! thank God that i conquered the parents talking through the phone

anyway, i should be happy! why?
becos mel jo and nich will be coming back to singapore!!! yeah!!!!
so happy hahaha

oh now i remember what i wanted to say
haha sue has a black envelope bag
WTS!?!?!??! hahaha although i am like using her com now as she allowed it cos she is smoking now hahahaha
oh no! i got like a big reaction when i found out ytd
oh wells hahahahah, now can you all feel how much i wanted it?
hehe anyway, i am going to receive it soon

and and the leather pants was awesomely!
it totally fits me! like totally perfect, maybe a bit short like 1/10 cm HAHA
but its really really nice
my grandma thought i was going to be a singer soon -.- NOPE!
hahahaha

class going to start in 30 mins time :)
bye people
be happy too!
-Melinda

Thursday, January 5, 2012

This is my story...

Happy Day :)
seriously, if you force me to type what i want to say here, i can but i dont think i shld.. private blog forever welcomes me

it made my day!!!
its form ohsofickle.blog and yup, i received my leather pants :) :) :)
yeah so happy

and next was, i managed to call up 2 parents and sms a father haha
all went well and they kinda appreciate it so yeah

uncle came to visit me before i ate my lunch and left school
he bought me a silver bangle from china and 2 india tribal bags OMG
so nice and sweet of him but i think i will use them when i go india haha little india
nope, just kidding!

when i was travelling to school.. i decided to read the smses that i received this morning, usually, i cant read morning msges well.. yeah
especially long ones
and so i received one from MELODY
WHAT!?!? i thought she came back but no, she sms me from Hong Kong OMG WOAH
she said this :
Hello Sophia (: hehe we got you a black envelope bag! Not much clothes to buy cos winter season )': jiayou in sch!! (: cya soon.. Dont reply ah exp! Be happy!

ahhaha, so sweet right?
thank you so much mel, are you able to read my blog in Hong Kong? haha
but yeah, things werent going well.. and i hate it
just want to get rid of everything in life and go church and stick to Christ
holidays werent enough as well

went to sch and got free lunch
ppl were distributing lunch everywhere
i gave sue my share cos i ate alr, and i dont feel hungry at all
just super thirsty

went for netball, today is the most fun one
it has been such a long time i played
and i shot in ALOT of goals
likka awesome!! OMG
got once, i super random just turn and without aiming, and it just got in
OMG OMG OMG so happy HAHA!
time to step down soon haha shh shh
and den before i went into the game to play, i was sitting with my captain and suddenly a grp of Italian guys came
they were from international school i guess, came to have competition with my sch's rugby
oh wells, i saw alex goh haha
my captain and i were like "OMG"
but i wasnt interested though until she told me they were Italian guys
pls, even if they talked in different languages, they can be from dutch or whatsoever
but aiyah, not handsome la haha
if i really see a super handsome guy from Italy, its not staring at him that makes me happy
its just, i will be so curious what features on his face that made him handsome, get it?
like i dont stare at him for my pleasure but becos its like some kind of good looking guys that makes you wonder what made them so "perfect"? oh wells
but i only am curious if they are like western or italian
haha i rmrbred i ever said i wanted to marry an Italian hahaha COS YEAH!
btw, the handsome ones were buff, errr... off! haha, no la, not interested hehe :P
and so thats why i decided to play into the game
my captain was crazy for that moment and i kept laughing cos its liek damn funny haha
anyway netball was awesome for me
having endless meetings as well
love netball :)

tmr going prawning or fishing with melva, melvin , valencia and vanissa haha
so funny but aiyah, just go lorh since i said holiday wasnt enough

time to watch some tv and get to work soon
alot of projects to do!!!
goodbye people
-Melinda

tell me.. who is more hurt?
i dont want to write abt this anymore, its damn childish

hate being a stalker for once

you dont know something

nothing...

world is ending soon, i alr gave my last present for you